Congrats on making the effort. Prayers are nice for motivation, but as you’re all too aware from your struggles, I think God expects us to meet him halfway by controlling those things we’re capable of controlling first. Kind of like you’re more likely to help your kid buy their first car if you see them working and saving towards it than if they just ask you for the money. I’m in good shape, but it takes a lot of efforts- key is to find your motivation for why you want to be thinner.
I pray in thanks to God for my health every day, and prior to every workout thanking him for giving me a body as capable as mine. I also pray to St. Jude to also thank the Lord that I don’t have to endure the health issues that some do.
Anyway, Dr. Dean Ornish has some great books on his program for eating healthy. He has developed a program that is proven to reverse the plaque build up in the veins/arteries. It’s pretty extreme, but he’s helped a lot of folks with severe cardio and health problems.
His comment is- people will always give up on diets/exercise programs if they feel like it’s a sacrifice. That is, folks literally would rather live shorter happier lives than feel like they’re making themselves miserable by living longer. He advises folks to focus on what they’re gaining, not what they’re losing. Having folks transition from being barely able to make it up a flight of stairs to being able to walk several with ease. The difference in lifestyle gains those people make turn a new eating/exercise program from a sacrifice to an enabler to live the way they like to live. Not a sacrifice.
So, why do you want to lose weight? Don’t say to be healthy, ask yourself be healthy to do what? I workout hard 5 days a week because my dad died before any of my kids were born. Great guy, but he didn’t take care of himself. I want to dance with my great-grand-daughter at her wedding and race motorcycles the next day, and be able to sky dive, SCUBA etc into my 90s. I don’t even have grand-kids yet. My kids also truly need to believe I’m indestructible for now, that I’ll always be there for them, it’s been a very rough year for them. It motivates me to eat healthy and get in the gym, although I hate it. I’m a vegetarian (not real strict at holidays) and it’s easier to eat that way than you would think. Lot’s of good cookbooks out there. For me, I don’t feel like I’m giving up anything I’m choosing to be there for my kids long term, a real gain for me.
What do you want to improve in your life that will turn this into a lifestyle choice, a gaining of something of value to you vice a sacrifice for an abstract non-quantifiable ‘healthier’? As I said before, getting up the stairs easier sounds trivial, but for someone who literally wheezes and stops 4 times it’s major.
Give your changes- new eating style or exercise regimen at least 6 weeks. Exercise can start out as just walking for 30 mins each day, than transition to jogging etc. Don’t skip or cheat in the first 6 weeks because if you stick it out that long it becomes a habit. Here is where prayer can really help in giving you the strength and guidance to stick with it.