I changed my thoughts of how benevolent God, Jesus and Virgin Mary are after many failures that had crushed my simple life. Now, I do not believe that they will actually help me that only myself and the people surrounding me are the only beings - the weapon to survive, to dream, to become successful, and to be happy.
Recently, Virgin Mary talked to me in my dream. But, I am a sinner and I hate Her for not actually helping me with my struggles. I did my best, I tried many times and prayed every single day for years for her intercession. Then I lost Her. I hid the rosaries, the Bible ⌠every holy relics. But she visited me. Why?
My dream started that a statue of Her starts blinking its eyes. We were startled and told my sister that the Virgin Mary statue is moving. I started to say âhelloâ and wished many typical earthly things. I donât know if she can hear me. After everything, she started talking and asked me what I want most. I told innocently to her, âI want you to heal my severe allergic rhinitisâ. Then she kissed my cheeks and smile.**
What did they have to deal with? They had to deal with poverty, with rejection, with having to flee their home country because people wanted to kill them, and eventually being killed in the most inhumane way possible. Some mystics say that Mary was an active participant in her Sonâs suffering, just as other mystics were to later participate in the Passion on a weekly or annual basis. And on top of all that, they didnât have central heat and air, had to walk wherever they wanted to go, didnât have running water, didnât have modern medicine, didnât have a grocery store, and didnât have food stamps or welfare checks or housing vouchers. 
Of all the billions of people who have walked the earth, they were probably two most perfect onesâ and yet they werenât spared suffering. They know all about it, firsthandâ but more importantly, they redirected their suffering to a greater purpose.