God bless you in your pain and sorrow and hurt.
You don’t need a whole lot of “words” to pray in a situation like this. Your life can be a prayer. Your pain and suffering are prayers if you can somehow either form the words, or will them in your heart , “thy will be done”. . .if even those few can’t be managed all He needs from you is a “yes”–a yes even to suffering, a bow of the head that while you can’t understand your pain and feel deep anger you still say, you still are WILLING to be, “yes” to Him.
The whole Body of Christ is joined to you in your sorrow–all us on earth, all those in heaven, and above all your dear Savior who Himself felt pain, and sorrow, and anguish, and who understands you and loves you more than His life. We unite in begging Him for mercy, for guidance, for solace, for counsel, for His peace, for you.
You will be in my prayers for a Novena of Divine Mercy starting this very day.
May Mary, our Mother, and St. Joseph, whose feast we celebrate tomorrow, hold you in their loving embrace presenting you and your sorrow and need to our dear Savior Jesus.