I’m going to publically humiliate myself so that others may benefit …
My principal sin is lustful thoughts and fantasies. The problem used to be more involved … ahem … but I’ve advanced out of that stage.
I was doing GREAT this year for about 6 months, when I rarely had lustful thoughts. They’d all but gone away.
Lately though, especially over the past two months, the thoughts have rushed back with a vengeance.
Today, I was battling this and I sat down and asked God: What’s changed? Why am I regressing?
The answer was as clear as a bell: TELEVISION. During my six months of reprieve, I’d disconnected my DirecTV. I’d turned the bloody thing back on two months ago at the request of my Dad, who visits frequently. He wanted to watch TV!
Now, I admit to being a lustful horn-dog—and I’m at my se*ual peak as a 34 year old woman. I am a single celibate. I don’t view pornography at all. I have never really had a problem with viewing porn. I simply have a very active and vivid imagination.
I am such a lustful horn-dog, infact, that TV commercials for the “Sandals” resorta illicit lustful thoughts and fantasies. I see couples scantily clad lying on the beach, and my mind thinks … MEN ARE YUMMY! TV commercial for Bod Body spray make me lust. I see the sweaty bare chested young hunks and I think of many things I’d like to do with them. LOL! I lust when I see commercials for weightwatchers—and I’m not lusting after other women—I’m lusting after the food. The food looks sexy and luscious! Luscious food, like chocolate, then reminds me of the pleasures of lust. And let’s not even start with the Cialis and Viagra commercials! They really get my mind going!
My theory is that everything on TV is advertised using sex, including food, and it’s all subconsciously absorbed into minds of us lusful-horndogs where it fetsters and mutates into well—many things. Meld that with someone (me) who has a near-photographic memory and you have trouble. A photo memory is great for remembering things. It came in handy in school … but such a memory is a problem when you can’t get images, words, or phrases out of your head. The ONLY thing that seems to erase sinful images is Confession.
I also tend to obsess about things a bit … which compounds the problem even further.
Anyway, today I called DirecTV and asked them if they could filter out the commercials. They said “NO,” so I told them to disconnect the satellite signal. Only problem is that I’m paid up until April 26th. I’ll just have to BE STRONG!
This brings me to the point: One of my confessors told me a few years ago that some people are so prone to sins of impurity that they have to go on a lifetime regimen of strict abstinence of anything they see or hear–especially TV and movies. I had hoped I wasn’t one of those folks, but I am.
My advice to the OP or anyone else afflicted with these sorts of problems would be to try turning off the TV. You’ll be amazed at the difference!
God Bless!