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Jordo
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Hey everyone! ( I am sorry, I just noticed a lot of confusion due to my name and I appologize. I am a girl named Jordan
. My childhood nickname was Jordo, given to me by my brother haha! Just thought I’d clarify
) I came upon the forums by accident and was hoping if anyone could give me advice. I am in the process of finding a spiritual director in hopes of being able to pursue a religious vocation with a Franciscan order near me. They do great work for the poor and truly love Our Lord. The main issue is that ever since I told my family about it it’s been a constant guilt ride for me. I have a very loving family, all around amazingly close family but, though we are Catholic, I have to admit my family is not the most devout. Either way today my mom said something to me that really hurt me to my core. My parents are 60 and 61and they are starting to have health issues, especially my dad. He’s worked his whole life to get my siblings( I am the youngest of 5) and I the best life possible. She told me basicallly that she didn’t understand why God would ask me to go take care of other people when I had my dad who has degenerative arthritis and will eventually need all the help we can give him. I told her the order I want to join would allow me to come home to care for him if he got sick, but she said that I was confused if I thought he’d only need me now and then. She basically told me that’s i didn’t love them and that my dad had hoped that ( my brother and I are the i my ones who have tried to pursue a career) I would be able to help him with my work. I told her everything I could, and when o mentioned that my siblings would help too. I told her that since I wasn’t an only child I was sure that They wouldn’t be alone. Right now my brother actually bought a house where we can all live so they will be with him, but she said as soon as I join the order she’ll return to our country ( which is not safe) with my father. I have no idea what to do. I was so
Overjoyed at the idea of giving myself completely to Our Lord, but now all I feel is guilt. My parents are in potential danger if I join and there is no way of changing their mind. If I join they’ll return to our country. I coulnp help wonder if my mom hopes that I’ll stay home forever with them being that I am the youngest, and don’t get me wrong, if this is what God wants me to do I’ll do it, but I long for a more perfect union with Him. I want to give everything up to be only His. Would it be sinful to pursue a vocation being that all this is happening? Would I be sinning against the fourth commandment?


Overjoyed at the idea of giving myself completely to Our Lord, but now all I feel is guilt. My parents are in potential danger if I join and there is no way of changing their mind. If I join they’ll return to our country. I coulnp help wonder if my mom hopes that I’ll stay home forever with them being that I am the youngest, and don’t get me wrong, if this is what God wants me to do I’ll do it, but I long for a more perfect union with Him. I want to give everything up to be only His. Would it be sinful to pursue a vocation being that all this is happening? Would I be sinning against the fourth commandment?
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