A
anon98328916
Guest
Hi I apologise if I have put this in the wrong category. I have recently started a new job as a medical Secretary in a medical centre after seeking a job for some months. I have been praying for awhile for guidence on the path God wants me to take. I felt this is the path he wants me to go on for a few reasons - 1) I have been searching for work for months and I applied for this position over two months ago and I was certain I wasn’t considered for the role when I hadn’t heard anything back. 2) I applied the day after the closing date for the position as I was unaware of the closing date and I thought no way will I here back from them now 3) I was offered the job the day after the interview which shocked me!
The job requires alot of training and is different from my previous admin/receptionist roles. I am starting to doubt my ability and if I will be able to do the job and I am usually quiet around people I don’t know and it takes me awhile to come out of my shell. I have ocd/anxiety (doesn’t help things) and it is making me paranoid that my work colleagues don’t like me or think I’m quiet or odd. When I finished up yesterday I was paranoid they would be talking about me after I finished yesterday and they would be saying “she is quiet! How did she get the job! or she is odd” I know I’m probably being silly but I can’t help it. My colleagues all know each other for years and I worry they won’t want me invading there circle, I’m I being silly?
I know I’m only there a number of days and I always doubt my ability and how far I can push myself but I can’t help but think God knows what I’m capable of, my sister told me I don’t know what kind of opportunities and people I could meet through this job and I know deep down she is right.
Am I overreacting? Is it normal to feel this way for the first while? I feel if I was more confident I wouldn’t care what they think.
The job requires alot of training and is different from my previous admin/receptionist roles. I am starting to doubt my ability and if I will be able to do the job and I am usually quiet around people I don’t know and it takes me awhile to come out of my shell. I have ocd/anxiety (doesn’t help things) and it is making me paranoid that my work colleagues don’t like me or think I’m quiet or odd. When I finished up yesterday I was paranoid they would be talking about me after I finished yesterday and they would be saying “she is quiet! How did she get the job! or she is odd” I know I’m probably being silly but I can’t help it. My colleagues all know each other for years and I worry they won’t want me invading there circle, I’m I being silly?
I know I’m only there a number of days and I always doubt my ability and how far I can push myself but I can’t help but think God knows what I’m capable of, my sister told me I don’t know what kind of opportunities and people I could meet through this job and I know deep down she is right.
Am I overreacting? Is it normal to feel this way for the first while? I feel if I was more confident I wouldn’t care what they think.
Last edited: