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After I became a believer and later a Catholic, I started to get “feelings.”
I would describe these “feelings” as inner promptings about what I should do in my life. For example, when praying about whether I should take a new job, I might receive a response one way or another, about whether that job was what God wanted.
In my every day life, I might also receive inner promptings, “feelings” of spiritual sweetness guiding me to one thing or another. For example, I might be guided to do an act of kindness for someone in need, or reach out to a family member.
Over time, these feelings of spiritual sweetness increased and began addressing all sorts of things in my life.
I believed them to be from the Holy Spirit, and I followed them at every turn, even when it cost me greatly, like a very nice job.
Then, one day, I was lying in bed, praying about one sin in my life and what to do about it, when I heard a voice.
The voice began to tell me what to do about my sin.
The odd part was the voice didn’t come from outside of me or in my head, but spoke using my own tongue and mouth.
As a believer, and one who has followed God for about eight years now, I genuinely believed the voice to be that of the Holy Spirit, as surprised as I was that I was hearing it.
The only problem was the voice began to make me do things, as opposed to those “inner promptings” I mentioned.
When I say “make,” I mean make. As in, me having no choice. The next day I had an appointment that I desperately needed to make, and the voice simply told me I was not going. Nor would the voice allow me to go.
I physically tried to get up and go to the appointment but found my limbs powerless.
Since that occasion, this has happened thousands more times. My life is not my own. I do not get to choose what I do or do not do. And I have no peace. The voice continues to speak to me through my own mouth, but not about sin anymore. It just talks about anything and everything. For a long time it acted like it was a teacher giving me life lessons, but now its just there.
And worst of all, the voice makes me do things. I might be sitting at work and need to get work done and it just stops me from working. And like I said, I have no choice. I cannot physically work in that moment.
I believe I have become possessed by an evil spirit. The sad part is that the path that lead to this terror was one of following what I thought were the inner promptings and guidance of the Holy Spirit. Jesus Christ was the center of my life, my savior, and now I feel abandoned to this thing that torments me and gives me no peace.
Can anyone shed light on this? Would God allow me to become possessed? Would the Holy Spirit possess? Is this somehow to grow me?
Why would God abandon me to this?
When I was following all those inner promptings, if they weren’t the Holy Spirit, what were they? A demon? Have I been deceived?
Has anyone ever had an experience like this?
And how do I get help to make it go?
To be clear, I have been in the hospital with doctors twice to address this problem, to no avail.
I would describe these “feelings” as inner promptings about what I should do in my life. For example, when praying about whether I should take a new job, I might receive a response one way or another, about whether that job was what God wanted.
In my every day life, I might also receive inner promptings, “feelings” of spiritual sweetness guiding me to one thing or another. For example, I might be guided to do an act of kindness for someone in need, or reach out to a family member.
Over time, these feelings of spiritual sweetness increased and began addressing all sorts of things in my life.
I believed them to be from the Holy Spirit, and I followed them at every turn, even when it cost me greatly, like a very nice job.
Then, one day, I was lying in bed, praying about one sin in my life and what to do about it, when I heard a voice.
The voice began to tell me what to do about my sin.
The odd part was the voice didn’t come from outside of me or in my head, but spoke using my own tongue and mouth.
As a believer, and one who has followed God for about eight years now, I genuinely believed the voice to be that of the Holy Spirit, as surprised as I was that I was hearing it.
The only problem was the voice began to make me do things, as opposed to those “inner promptings” I mentioned.
When I say “make,” I mean make. As in, me having no choice. The next day I had an appointment that I desperately needed to make, and the voice simply told me I was not going. Nor would the voice allow me to go.
I physically tried to get up and go to the appointment but found my limbs powerless.
Since that occasion, this has happened thousands more times. My life is not my own. I do not get to choose what I do or do not do. And I have no peace. The voice continues to speak to me through my own mouth, but not about sin anymore. It just talks about anything and everything. For a long time it acted like it was a teacher giving me life lessons, but now its just there.
And worst of all, the voice makes me do things. I might be sitting at work and need to get work done and it just stops me from working. And like I said, I have no choice. I cannot physically work in that moment.
I believe I have become possessed by an evil spirit. The sad part is that the path that lead to this terror was one of following what I thought were the inner promptings and guidance of the Holy Spirit. Jesus Christ was the center of my life, my savior, and now I feel abandoned to this thing that torments me and gives me no peace.
Can anyone shed light on this? Would God allow me to become possessed? Would the Holy Spirit possess? Is this somehow to grow me?
Why would God abandon me to this?
When I was following all those inner promptings, if they weren’t the Holy Spirit, what were they? A demon? Have I been deceived?
Has anyone ever had an experience like this?
And how do I get help to make it go?
To be clear, I have been in the hospital with doctors twice to address this problem, to no avail.
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