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Hello all!
I’m LCMS Lutheran (but Roman Catholic baptized) researching into the Catholic Church with the intention to join RCIA in the next few years.
This has been bugging me lately so I thought I’d share it with you all to get some insight.
This happened over 2 years ago, when I first began seriously entertaining the thought of researching Catholicism with the intention to convert. One morning I had an epiphany after praying through a prayer with a Catholic - when I started the prayer, I was indifferent; by the end, I was full in. It was the best, most fulfilling prayer I had ever prayed. I wanted to start RCIA right away.
A week later, I had an incredibly vivid dream - I had never experienced a dream that felt so real. I was in my own room, sitting on the floor by my bookshelf.It was at night, the room was pitch black. A vision of the Virgin Mary appeared; she was in a traditional black and white nun’s habit. She was glowing…no, more like shining brightly that emanated from her.
I was incredibly frightened but also intrigued. I was glued to the spot. She spoke directly to me. This is the incredibly confusing part. She said something to the effect of: “You know this is wrong, do not join the Catholic Church. You must wait.” I awoke very shaken. It simultaneously confirmed to me that the Catholic Church is accurate yet also made me afraid of the Church.
It retrospect, it was an incredibly short dream, but the feeling in the dream, it felt like it lasted forever.
Anyways, after that…coupled by a few real-life experiences…I heeded the warning and I reverted. But I’m back to researching Catholicism again with a renewed vigor. I’m just wondering about this dream. Was this the Virgin Mary visiting me in a dream to tell me I wasn’t ready yet to join in the fullness of the Church and to wait until I was ready? Or was it Satan playing a trick on me to attempt to drive me away from the Church? Or was it just a weird dream I had that meant nothing and I just put too much stock in it?
Any thoughts/concerns/advice is appreciated!
I haven’t told anyone this - not even my own parents - except for one trusted friend who isn’t even a Catholic and she had nothing to say about it.
I’m LCMS Lutheran (but Roman Catholic baptized) researching into the Catholic Church with the intention to join RCIA in the next few years.
This has been bugging me lately so I thought I’d share it with you all to get some insight.
This happened over 2 years ago, when I first began seriously entertaining the thought of researching Catholicism with the intention to convert. One morning I had an epiphany after praying through a prayer with a Catholic - when I started the prayer, I was indifferent; by the end, I was full in. It was the best, most fulfilling prayer I had ever prayed. I wanted to start RCIA right away.
A week later, I had an incredibly vivid dream - I had never experienced a dream that felt so real. I was in my own room, sitting on the floor by my bookshelf.It was at night, the room was pitch black. A vision of the Virgin Mary appeared; she was in a traditional black and white nun’s habit. She was glowing…no, more like shining brightly that emanated from her.
I was incredibly frightened but also intrigued. I was glued to the spot. She spoke directly to me. This is the incredibly confusing part. She said something to the effect of: “You know this is wrong, do not join the Catholic Church. You must wait.” I awoke very shaken. It simultaneously confirmed to me that the Catholic Church is accurate yet also made me afraid of the Church.
It retrospect, it was an incredibly short dream, but the feeling in the dream, it felt like it lasted forever.
Anyways, after that…coupled by a few real-life experiences…I heeded the warning and I reverted. But I’m back to researching Catholicism again with a renewed vigor. I’m just wondering about this dream. Was this the Virgin Mary visiting me in a dream to tell me I wasn’t ready yet to join in the fullness of the Church and to wait until I was ready? Or was it Satan playing a trick on me to attempt to drive me away from the Church? Or was it just a weird dream I had that meant nothing and I just put too much stock in it?
Any thoughts/concerns/advice is appreciated!
I haven’t told anyone this - not even my own parents - except for one trusted friend who isn’t even a Catholic and she had nothing to say about it.