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CatholicMan17
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I am 17 (almost) and don’t really talk to people because it males me anxious. Sometimes, people think I don’t like them, even though I have nothing against them, I’m just really intimidated and if I form social bonds I tend to get stressed out. Sometimes, if someone says hi to me in a hall I pretend I don’t know who it is because I’m afraid they are talking to someone else, and it’ll be awkward. Since people’s feelings are hurt, does that mean I shouldn’t do this? Further, since I have no friends at my school or church (my closest and only friend lives 50 miles away and I can’t drive, and she doesn’t like me much) I often feel lonely, and when I do, I don’t usually turn to God but rather just stare out into space trying not to cry; sometimes on Fridays, I’ll do this for an hour or two. When I get this way I try to write poetry but I can’t because I don’t have the motivation and it just feels do hard to get up to grab a piece of paper or even to think.
The last time I had any meaningful conversation with someone, I ended up liking her and tried to talk to her later, but instead kept walking past her and deciding to not talk to her. I’m pretty sure she thinks I am creepy now, as she glares at me often. I just put my head down and to the right whenever I see her because I feel guilty and scared. Is it wrong that I kept intentionally walking past someone because I’m too much of a coward to speak to people? I feel like it is just sad that I am 17 and can’t even talk to people in person.
Also, I feel like everyone at my RCIA who has talked to me hates me, except this one dude, and one of our priests. However, I have no other RCIA program nearby but I don’t like going there. What should I do?
The last time I had any meaningful conversation with someone, I ended up liking her and tried to talk to her later, but instead kept walking past her and deciding to not talk to her. I’m pretty sure she thinks I am creepy now, as she glares at me often. I just put my head down and to the right whenever I see her because I feel guilty and scared. Is it wrong that I kept intentionally walking past someone because I’m too much of a coward to speak to people? I feel like it is just sad that I am 17 and can’t even talk to people in person.
Also, I feel like everyone at my RCIA who has talked to me hates me, except this one dude, and one of our priests. However, I have no other RCIA program nearby but I don’t like going there. What should I do?