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martyfrancis
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I am a cradle catholic. Although I have been a catholic all my life, I was blessed to have a spiritual encounter with God just before I graduated from college thus propelling me to develop and cultivate a deeper and more meaningful relationship with Him and explore and enrich my faith further. I used to think all denominations in Christianity thought the same thing and I wasn’t too bothered that I didn’t have a catholic bible with me. In my early 20s, I joined a catholic young adults group that allowed me to understand the faith even more and I was amazed at the richness and soundness of our church teachings and the “richness” of the deposit of faith. Thanks to the teachings of TOBs, Scott Hahn, Tim Staples and all the amazing guys at CA, I was convinced Catholicism was the one true faith. My zeal for the faith lead me to lead the youth ministry in my parish for a number of years and oversaw the faith formation of young adults and college students who joined our parish youth ministry.
Then the time came for me to get married and I married a beautiful catholic woman who was also passionate about the faith. I stepped down from active ministry and took on a new ministry - putting into practice everything I had learned about my faith in the actual living experience through my marriage. We were blessed with a baby boy soon after.
As a married man, husband and father now, I am finding far more challenging than ever before to live my faith. Not that I don’t know the tenets and teachings of my faith, but the noise is growing ever more loud than 10 years ago I feel. On one hand yes I do know my faith, everything I have learned, on the other hand, the recent church’s scandals and weak leadership has made it harder to discern what’s right or wrong, it has made it harder to reinforce my faith “upon the rock” which we all know has gone wayward.
It also doesn’t help that there’s this visible rise of traditionalist catholicism which is pretty much anti-Vatican in everything which makes me wonder whether they are practicing elitism to some degree - it makes me question their brand of faith (I am referring to folks like Taylor Marshall, Tim Gordon, Pat Coffin, etc.). I feel by mixing sound theology with a subtle haughtiness, it’s tainting the Catholicism that I know and love.
I guess I am just holding on to those beliefs that I have always held dear and was formed with and watching on the sides as this mess unfolds in our church. Ultimately my faith rests in Jesus, and not Pope Francis or Taylor Marshall. That doesn’t mean I don’t pray the pope’s monthly intention or question the legitimacy of the Holy Eucharist and the healing power of reconciliation just because of a bad few priests (I have had priests dispensing rubbish advice during my confession on the issue of chastity) because ultimately its still Jesus in the eucharist, its still God who forgives, despite how shitty the priest can be.
Anyway just thought I share this with all of you. God bless and keep the faith
Then the time came for me to get married and I married a beautiful catholic woman who was also passionate about the faith. I stepped down from active ministry and took on a new ministry - putting into practice everything I had learned about my faith in the actual living experience through my marriage. We were blessed with a baby boy soon after.
As a married man, husband and father now, I am finding far more challenging than ever before to live my faith. Not that I don’t know the tenets and teachings of my faith, but the noise is growing ever more loud than 10 years ago I feel. On one hand yes I do know my faith, everything I have learned, on the other hand, the recent church’s scandals and weak leadership has made it harder to discern what’s right or wrong, it has made it harder to reinforce my faith “upon the rock” which we all know has gone wayward.
It also doesn’t help that there’s this visible rise of traditionalist catholicism which is pretty much anti-Vatican in everything which makes me wonder whether they are practicing elitism to some degree - it makes me question their brand of faith (I am referring to folks like Taylor Marshall, Tim Gordon, Pat Coffin, etc.). I feel by mixing sound theology with a subtle haughtiness, it’s tainting the Catholicism that I know and love.
I guess I am just holding on to those beliefs that I have always held dear and was formed with and watching on the sides as this mess unfolds in our church. Ultimately my faith rests in Jesus, and not Pope Francis or Taylor Marshall. That doesn’t mean I don’t pray the pope’s monthly intention or question the legitimacy of the Holy Eucharist and the healing power of reconciliation just because of a bad few priests (I have had priests dispensing rubbish advice during my confession on the issue of chastity) because ultimately its still Jesus in the eucharist, its still God who forgives, despite how shitty the priest can be.
Anyway just thought I share this with all of you. God bless and keep the faith