Being blessed and fearful

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In the past I have been in a lot of ‘less than ideal’ situations so to speak. IE horribd employment situation/unemployment, abusive relationships (not just men but also just friendships with other women and family members) and not good living situations.

I look at my life now. And i can honestly say I am blessed because all areas in my life are good. Nice appartment men, no constant contact with abusive people and a good job.

The problem: I am sacred to trust and have to wonder if I am walking around with my rose coloured glasses. A year and a half ago, I was in a situation where I though everything was good at work and I was called into the office and told out of the blue I was being fired.

How can I trust? I try hard on the outside, but my insides are not catching up

 

[Tis_Bearself]

I understand this very well. Have been there. It’s almost like a form of PTSD. And the worst part is that, life being what it is, something bad will eventually happen again because life has ups and downs.

I too have had a lot of messy past employment situations, bad relationships both romantic and otherwise, and general stress. A few years ago I got to a good place in life, had a couple years of relative relaxation, then my mother got really sick for a couple years and died and then a bunch of my other relatives and friends started to die one after the other, and then my husband died recently.

I do not know if this will help you, but I found two prayers helpful.
The first is Padre Pio: “Pray, hope, and don’t worry.” His point was that worrying or having anxiety doesn’t change a thing about the situation you’re in, good or bad, so we should not waste time on it.

The second is the Divine Mercy prayer at the end of the chaplet:
“Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion — inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself.”

Now I understand it is rather hard to see God’s holy will as “Love and Mercy itself” when we are getting suddenly fired or somebody is getting very sick or dying, but if we keep this sentiment in mind then maybe we can have confidence in God and see what lessons he is trying to teach us with these issues.

Also, don’t forget to thank God every day for his blessings, Which include the fact that you woke up and are going about your business each day…even though when I was young and my mother would tell me that, I would argue with her that waking up every day wasn’t so great because back then I didn’t think much of life. Now that I am older and wiser I see it her way.

You might also try going to Adoration regularly and just sit there. Pray for Jesus to remove your anxiety. He has a way of doing that.

I hope this helps.
God bless

 

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Wow what a great reply ! Thank you so much

 

[LillyFaith]

This is simple and quick mostly because I’m not an adult yet and don’t quite have the same struggles as you, but what I usually think about is how everything happens for a reason. Something negative may happen in your life, but we never know what God was saving us from. I like to think about all the possible tragedies that could have happened if God didn’t prevent me from doing something I would have liked to do more. It helps me feel more confident in Him. Pray a lot, get in touch with God. Thank Him for the good in life, and know that no matter what, He is still with you and guiding you along your journey. He sees every possible outcome and allows for certain things to happen accordingly. Take a deep breath, and remember that this world is fleeting, but eternity lasts forever. God bless.