This has been going on for 30 years? Even after the exorcism prayers? Or did the spiritual warfare prayers alleviate the attacks?
It started when I was a child. At first my parents thought it was all in my head and that it was my imagination. “Oh she just has an active imagination.” I went to a catholic grade school and even there the teachers, nuns and Priests sort of rolled their eyes and moved on. Somehow around this time I learned about the offering up of suffering so I thought God was giving me things to offer so that is what i did.
Then when I was 10-11 these things got so violent my parents finally got to witness it when the lights wouldn’t turn on or would go off and then once my bed tipped over and hte carpet was soaked and my dresser drawers were dumped out and curtains ripped down. Then my parents believed me but didn’t know what to do.
When I was 15 I met a Priest who believed me (finally) because I saw a ghost at a Catholic place I worked. The management contacted him. I described this person I saw and what he was burried in and everything. I told him some things about my history but not much because I was afraid of not being believed.
In my 20’s I started seeing psychiatrists hoping that I was mentally ill and they could give me a pill and make it go away. I wasn’t so lucky. One told me to see a Priest.
When I was 29 I decided that when I turned 30 I was going to pursue this until I got help even if it killed me and so my journey began.
I survived this long because of my Grandma who lived next door to my parents. She always believed me and gave me rosarys to pray and holy water. This is how I survived, probably how I made it through without being possessed.
At 30 I went in to see a Priest who wanted nothing to do with me. I didn’t give up and foudn another Priest who did believe me but wasn’t sure what to do. He researched it and helped and some of it lifted but never stopped. Then he was transferred to another church.
I didn’t give up.
Then I emailed a Catholic Charasmatic center because someone told me they would probably believe me. You see the biggest obsticle to getting help is for people to believe you. My case was so extreme it was hard to believe. That place found someone who lived near me who knew about spiritual warfare who could help me. (Do you know the day I contacted this center I suffered the worst attacks ever? It was then I knew I was on the right path because throughout my life I noticed that the attacks would increase when I went to church and let up when I missed. Or let up if I sinned.)
I contacted this guy. He believed me. He met with me got to know me and prayed with me. After awhile he put me in touch with a couple who have been working on Spiritual warefare for 30 years. and we went from there. The past month has been the first time in my life where I’ve gotten more than a weeks worth of peaceful sleep.
Meanwhile I tried other resource online who were not helpful to me. I was being attacked on every level, emotionally, spiritually, physically and so forth and the attacks were so extensive that someone had to spend time with me to truly understand and help. It was then when I realized the importance of finding someone whom you can meet with and work with face to face.
There are very arrogant people on the web who believe that it is a one size fits all solution. This is not the case, and one such person on the web drove me to a state of depression and dispair but I digress. I pulled out of it with God’s help and found someone else.
Does that answer your question?
