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Littleriver64
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Hello, so it’s been 5 months since my ex and I split. We started dating while I was in the marine corps and we dated s little over 2 years. Of course she was back home in Kansas and I’m stationed out in California. Sadly I didn’t get a lot of time to be with her and it wasn’t a normal relationship because we didn’t get to spend time with each other. I loved every moment I got to spend with her and all the mail and the phone calls. But we rushed our relationship and had pre marital sex. I wish I was stronger and didn’t tempt her. For most of our relationship that’s all it seemed to focus on and it was my doing. She tried to get me to stop. Her being Catholic and I’m just now starting to convert I fully grasp what I’ve done. On the last few days I was home she told me we both need to see other people and get the experience of dating as it was both our first relationship. After that we haven’t really spoken as I just seem to remind her of the past and she’s just trying to forget it. I messed up big time because I took her for granted, she’s been the biggest blessing to me and she’s the reason I’m this close to god and converting. I struggled bad for a month and it got a little better after the break up and I’ve tried going on a date or two and talking to new people. But all the little things just remind me of her or a fun or happy memory. I’ve asked god for a sign or a dream, I’ve prayed for answers and for help to finding the one I’m supposed to be with for life. I’ve prayed to st. Jude for a relationship with my ex because I don’t want her out of my life but I want a second chance so I can show her I’ve changed and I can do better for her. I just want some advice or opinions about this. I’m leaving her alone and I’m focusing on myself and still going on dates. I just can’t stop thinking about her. Thank you for reading all this, god bless!