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Ben_Sinner
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I had a thought pop into my head today while driving and it’s really disturbing me and making me anxious. I’ve been obsessing over it all day and it’s actually making me kind of depressed. I had a thought that maybe all the things I heard and read about Christianity are a hallucination that only I (my mind) makes up. Outside of myself, Christianity doesn’t exist.
What I mean by “exclusive hallucination” is everything else I experience (other people, objects, etc.) are actually there, but anything that relates to Jesus and the gospel is a random hallucination my mind creates for some reason. Even somebody else affirming what I’m seeing is really there is a part of the “hallucination” to program my mind into thinking Christianity is true.
Here is an example of what I mean.
I’m on my computer looking up the Catholic Answers forums. I am actually in the room. The computer is actually there. The chair I’m sitting on is really there, and everything else is really there. The only thing that isn’t there and is a hallucination in that room is the Catholic Answers website telling me how one can be saved by Christ. I wonder if what I’m seeing is actually true so I ask somebody to come in the room and look at it as well. They see the same thing…but THAT person is also a hallucination my mind created to make me believe that Christianity and it’s teaching actually exist.
So basically I’m worried at the possibility that my mind creates exclusive hallucinations specifically that conjure up some “Christianity” when in fact all those things I hallucinate about are not really there.
I mean it has been prove to be perfectly possible for somebody to have exclusive hallucinations while everything remains intact. For example, a person will hallucinate a cat being in a room full of people who are actually there. The person sees the hallucination and the room full of people who are really there. I’m worried about Christianity being my “cat” in this situation.
What I mean by “exclusive hallucination” is everything else I experience (other people, objects, etc.) are actually there, but anything that relates to Jesus and the gospel is a random hallucination my mind creates for some reason. Even somebody else affirming what I’m seeing is really there is a part of the “hallucination” to program my mind into thinking Christianity is true.
Here is an example of what I mean.
I’m on my computer looking up the Catholic Answers forums. I am actually in the room. The computer is actually there. The chair I’m sitting on is really there, and everything else is really there. The only thing that isn’t there and is a hallucination in that room is the Catholic Answers website telling me how one can be saved by Christ. I wonder if what I’m seeing is actually true so I ask somebody to come in the room and look at it as well. They see the same thing…but THAT person is also a hallucination my mind created to make me believe that Christianity and it’s teaching actually exist.
So basically I’m worried at the possibility that my mind creates exclusive hallucinations specifically that conjure up some “Christianity” when in fact all those things I hallucinate about are not really there.
I mean it has been prove to be perfectly possible for somebody to have exclusive hallucinations while everything remains intact. For example, a person will hallucinate a cat being in a room full of people who are actually there. The person sees the hallucination and the room full of people who are really there. I’m worried about Christianity being my “cat” in this situation.