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EMFrost
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I have a good friend with a beautiful faith, but sometimes says things that confuse me. At one point we were having a faith conversation and she mentioned to me “Oh don’t worry, the devil can’t hear your thoughts.” At first I thought, “That’s really good! He won’t know when I’m feeling weak then or take pleasure in my internal struggles” but for a number of reasons… I don’t understand how this can be true. I asked my Mom about it and she fussed a bit saying I was giving the devil the same power as God. Is thought reading one of those sacred things exclusive to God though?
This is my problem
My most extreme spiritual battles- where I am most tormented by evil and most vulnerable and most tempted and am up late into the night trying not to let the devil shatter my imperfect trust in God- are in my thoughts
Who have I been fighting if the devil can’t get in there?
Everyone has different temptations- my daily battle ground is my mind. So to say he’s not aware of what’s up there doesn’t make sense at all.
Sometimes bad “thoughts” come into my head: really dark, disturbing. I don’t will these ideas and they just pop in there with no warning. They resemble the thoughts I’m having but are harshly distorted and twisted. Just like someone heard what I thought and interpreted it in the worst or dirtiest possible way to upset me. They often also make me feel so ashamed or so frightened I want to cry.
I would beat myself up about it mentally and emotionally because I believed I must be controlling it somehow deep deep down without realizing.
I never figured out how to stop…
But then I was taught about the nature of temptation and that being tempted wasn’t actually a sin. I finally understood how the devil had been torturing me and that I’m not a bad person.
That’s what I thought this was: me being tempted by the devil.
But if my friend and Mom are right, what’s going on then?
Anybody have the truth on this matter? Please tell me if you do.
This is my problem
My most extreme spiritual battles- where I am most tormented by evil and most vulnerable and most tempted and am up late into the night trying not to let the devil shatter my imperfect trust in God- are in my thoughts
Who have I been fighting if the devil can’t get in there?
Everyone has different temptations- my daily battle ground is my mind. So to say he’s not aware of what’s up there doesn’t make sense at all.
Sometimes bad “thoughts” come into my head: really dark, disturbing. I don’t will these ideas and they just pop in there with no warning. They resemble the thoughts I’m having but are harshly distorted and twisted. Just like someone heard what I thought and interpreted it in the worst or dirtiest possible way to upset me. They often also make me feel so ashamed or so frightened I want to cry.
I would beat myself up about it mentally and emotionally because I believed I must be controlling it somehow deep deep down without realizing.
I never figured out how to stop…
But then I was taught about the nature of temptation and that being tempted wasn’t actually a sin. I finally understood how the devil had been torturing me and that I’m not a bad person.
That’s what I thought this was: me being tempted by the devil.
But if my friend and Mom are right, what’s going on then?
Anybody have the truth on this matter? Please tell me if you do.