I’m just in it for the indulgences.
(only kidding…but there is one ya know)
Last spring, the week after Easter, I left the Catholic Church. I thought I had arrived at a place where I needed more vibrant worship and as I began to do a lot of independent Bible study, I started thinking Catholic teaching did not line up with scripture. So I left and got hooked up with a little evangelical “Bible church.” Stop me if you’ve heard this one before…
Fast forward one year… I saw, first-hand, everything I had only heard or read about previously from folks like Marcus Grodi and Scott Hahn. I saw the lack of authority, the uncertain doctrines, the lack of reverence and liturgy, the one man rule mentality… you name it. Once I stopped and asked the Lord to show me if I had made a mistake, he did! He showed me the truth of the Eucharist and the Catholic Church and I ran back home! God is good. His mercy endures forever.
I have always sensed a call from God to serve him and his people and tried to discern what role that might involve. I felt it was a call to priesthood years ago but I am married. As a “former Catholic” I was quickly involved in ministry, which I loved. Upon hearing God’s call to return to the Church, I was aware that I would have to give that up.
Following a weekend retreat, during which I asked Jesus many times what I might do to serve his church, once I am done with the “protestant” ministry, I came home and sat down to have coffee with my wife. She picked up a copy of the church bulletin, pointed to a notice seeking catechists and said, “Look at this.”
I have a thick head. But I’ve finally learned one thing since following the Lord. It is that he will direct me by influencing my feelings, impressions and reactions to things, once I have sought his will and asked for guidance. When I saw that notice, my heart raced. Although I’ve never been a teacher professionally, all I felt was excitement and peace about the idea. I prayed about it that night. I dreamed about it all night and was even more excited the next morning!
I contacted the DRE that day. I will be a new catechist in the fall. I’m starting classes soon.
I’m still bugging the Lord every day about what else he has in mind- I would love to be an extraordinary minister of holy communion. Several people have asked if I’ve considered the diaconate. But for some reason, I’ve never had any desire to discern that.
A priest once told me that “God doesn’t call married men!” so I need to forget the call to the priesthood that I thought I heard. So I don’t talk about it any more. Deep down, I still often wonder if I will someday hear the Lord say, “*I called you before you were married but you weren’t listening.” *
We must serve as best we can where we find ourselves I suppose.
Praise Him.