Let’s address a couple of different things.
First, rejecting contraception does not mean you will have a thousand babies. That is a false dichotomy.
Second, you mention prescribing contraceptives to teenage girls. That means you are supporting both contraception **and **fornication. It seems you do not see anything wrong with teen girls engaging in sexual activity, and in fact want to be their accomplice instead of being the person who can explain to them why it is wrong.
As for being a doctor and remaining faithful to the Church’s teaching, let me suggest you contact a couple of organizations.
First, contact
www.popepaulvi.com and talk with Dr. Hilgers. He has successfully integrated the Church’s teaching into his medical practice and has trained others in his methods. He can share with you why the Church’s way is actually the right way and *better *for women.
Ditto with doctors who are registered on
www.omsoul.com as NFP-Only doctors. Contact some of them and talk to them. They will share with you both why they have chosen this path and how it has blessed them personally and professionally.
Lastly, I’d suggest that you order the Physician’s Pack from
www.omsoul.com and listen to the audio and read the books. These are doctors who, in many cases, used to prescribe contraceptives and stopped. Their testimony goes to the heart of your struggle and I think it could help you.
Remember, put God first and the rest will follow. You will be surprised when the day comes and not only are you merely assenting but fully embracing the Church’s teaching. At this point, I cannot even remember how or why I ever thought contraception was acceptable. It’s so obvious to me now, that I can’t even take up the “devil’s advocate” role because I can’t formulate any argument that supports contaception. It is so repulsive to me, I can’t imagine it in my life or my marriage.
I was a convert BTW and couldn’t imagine a world where contraception was wrong, either.