So this SD who I have only met with twice told me last time to do the consecration to Mary.
Do you mean St Louis de Montfort’s “Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary”?
Tomorrow I am supposed to do it and I don’t quite feel ready.
Have you read the book “True Devotion to Mary” and done the 33 day preparation period? How did you choose tomorrow?
My friends said this sounds rather protestant, but I LOVE Mary.
Your friends said it sounds Protestant?

I’m very puzzled by this lol… Protestants generally don’t have a devotion to Mary at all. Devotion to Mary, and especially the Total Consecration, are VERY Catholic, not to mention very traditional.
I pray the rosary daily and appreciate her so much for what she did to me.
that is good
But some parts of this book by Louis Du Montford (sp?) makes it seem like he couldn’t live without Mary. I would rather consecrate myself directly to Jesus than go through Mary. Should I continue with it even though my heart is not in it?
It seems like you maybe need to understand this devotion more… St Louis de Montfort said that we consecration ourselves to Mary
so that we would belong to Jesus MORE perfectly, then if we were to give ourselves directly to Him. The reasons are described fully in the book, but basically, - she gives us to Him better than we give ourselves, because she adds her prayers, merits, etc, to the offering… and because she is His Mother and so close to Him. St Louis makes the example of…let’s say you gave a present to the King… but it would please him more if you asked the queen to give it to the king, from you, because she would make it more beautiful.
If you are unable to mean the Consecration words, I would re-read the book and try again later this summer

there are Marian feast days that you can choose. I made the Consecration 2 years ago and there is a lot of grace found in this devotion.
God bless!