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kellyb32
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Because of a whole host of situations that are AGAIN happening in my life…I am considering possibly putting up my 4th child for adoption. I am now 5 months pregnant. My husband thinks I’m crazy. But I’m simply emotionally and physically drained from the worry and fear that I must endure alone because he can’t deal with anyone but himself right now (as usual).
My husband of 13 years is again unable to cope with any kind of stress (he has anxiety disorders) and is seeking help…again. That’s a good thing I suppose but I’m just tired of going through pregnancies and the first 6 months of having a baby home all by myself. My other 3 children are 11, 3 and 1 years old. He’s admitted to me over and over and over again that he just can’t be the man I need or want, that I should’ve run away when I had the chance 15 years ago when we dated…because of this and a whole bunch of other things, I’m worn out.
We also can’t afford another child. We live in a 2 bedroom 800 square foot house and can’t afford to move into anything larger. I’m unable to work now because of an incompetent cervix, my husband makes $10 an hour and doesn’t always work 40 hours a week, he receives no benefits (not even paid sick days or personal days…he doesn’t work, he doesn’t get paid). We’re already on public assistance so I get medical from the state and we get food stamps,. We can hardly keep up with basic expenses let alone surprises (like our van is having lots of electrical problems). He hasn’t been able to keep a good job and they are so hard to find in our depressed area.
I’m already making a list of things to sell on ebay just to try and prepare for the month of July because work informed my husband that he will be off since they can’t afford to pay him. They said they’d give him unemployment but on 10 bucks an hour and average of 32 hours a week…that’s not a whole lot of money. He’s not capable of handling a second job right now because of his nerves and I’m at my wits end.
I simply don’t feel like I’m able to care for another baby on my own and we’re like sardines in this house as it is…I have my daughters and son already sharing a 10x9 room, there is no place for a second crib in there. My son has to share my dresser because I don’t have the room or the money to get him his own. There is no way for me to escape for more than an hour at a time without worrying about my kids since my husband would rather have my 11 year old babysit the 2 little ones while he does his own thing. He doesn’t leave them alone…he just doesn’t make himself available without getting upset for having his down time disturbed. My husband doesn’t provide the emotional safety net I need to fall on. He’s admitted it to me that he just can’t be there for me and doesn’t know when or if he will.
Please pray that I do what is right for my newest child and pray for the rest of my family too. We need it.
Thank you.
My husband of 13 years is again unable to cope with any kind of stress (he has anxiety disorders) and is seeking help…again. That’s a good thing I suppose but I’m just tired of going through pregnancies and the first 6 months of having a baby home all by myself. My other 3 children are 11, 3 and 1 years old. He’s admitted to me over and over and over again that he just can’t be the man I need or want, that I should’ve run away when I had the chance 15 years ago when we dated…because of this and a whole bunch of other things, I’m worn out.
We also can’t afford another child. We live in a 2 bedroom 800 square foot house and can’t afford to move into anything larger. I’m unable to work now because of an incompetent cervix, my husband makes $10 an hour and doesn’t always work 40 hours a week, he receives no benefits (not even paid sick days or personal days…he doesn’t work, he doesn’t get paid). We’re already on public assistance so I get medical from the state and we get food stamps,. We can hardly keep up with basic expenses let alone surprises (like our van is having lots of electrical problems). He hasn’t been able to keep a good job and they are so hard to find in our depressed area.
I’m already making a list of things to sell on ebay just to try and prepare for the month of July because work informed my husband that he will be off since they can’t afford to pay him. They said they’d give him unemployment but on 10 bucks an hour and average of 32 hours a week…that’s not a whole lot of money. He’s not capable of handling a second job right now because of his nerves and I’m at my wits end.
I simply don’t feel like I’m able to care for another baby on my own and we’re like sardines in this house as it is…I have my daughters and son already sharing a 10x9 room, there is no place for a second crib in there. My son has to share my dresser because I don’t have the room or the money to get him his own. There is no way for me to escape for more than an hour at a time without worrying about my kids since my husband would rather have my 11 year old babysit the 2 little ones while he does his own thing. He doesn’t leave them alone…he just doesn’t make himself available without getting upset for having his down time disturbed. My husband doesn’t provide the emotional safety net I need to fall on. He’s admitted it to me that he just can’t be there for me and doesn’t know when or if he will.
Please pray that I do what is right for my newest child and pray for the rest of my family too. We need it.
Thank you.