I noted in regular Catholic school of the early fifties that extrovert children were given better treatment than those who needed to know the adult first. I was one of those. One little girl was pretty too, and of course I was out of her social sphere, as I was always the class scapegoat. With a turned up nose, my bubble gum stick she always refused, which gave me a complex and added to the torture. My school’s replacement teacher was a friend of my mom, so my marks improved in the two weeks she was there. It obviously showed in the school records that the solution in my case was kindness, and hiding the instruments of torture.
My home teacher was a matronly spinster with a col. Klink manacle, permanently pursed lips, overweight, and a bun in the hair. When she blocked the sun coming in the window she presented an immense person. She always walked with her symbol of power, a ruler to crack small fingers if the swirl of that letter “Q” didn’t just have that smooth curve the way she liked it, or she caught me distracted admiring my young love. My first day was one of sheer terror and that followed for my year with her. I repeated my grade 4 of course.
So it wasn’t just in convents. What these institutions lacked was the psychological assessment of the staff as well. There was a tendency of these to take out their discontent and frustrations on the kids. A talk of career orientation would have helped, which may result in a suggestion to find another calling away from children. Clearly many nuns and teachers were unhappy, and just followed wrong advice.
It was the year of my first real miracle also. I was asked to multiply a 4 digit number by a 3, and there were more than the usual numbers above 6. I was behind in the multiplication table by the rest of the class as my learning was taking a beating. I knew I was being set up as usual for ridicule and sport for the children. I picked up the chalk and I recall asking God for help, as I knew if I got it wrong she would throw an eraser at me. With my mind completely empty I wrote down random numbers. I put the chalk down, and I noted the usual laughter was overdue. I didn’t dare turn around. “Aright children, now we will open our grammer book to page…” and I sat down. I got the right answer.