Dear God, please Help me

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The title of this thread is actually one of my favourite Morrissey songs. However I think it applies to me at the moment.

The last three weeks have been the worst of my life. I have been in hospital and diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder. My depression and anxiety has been getting worse and on Wednesday I was admitted to hospital again after collapsing. I took a mixture of tablets I shouldn’t have.

During this time, I have neglected my very obvious duties to God and I feel extremely bad. I’m going to Mass tonight for the first time in a long while.

Can anyone give me advice? While I be forgiven?

Andy
 
Of course you will be forgiven. In fact, you may not even be culpable (I’m assuming of missing Mass) because of your condition.

I will pray for you. Stay close to Jesus in these difficult times.
 
There is hope. Continue to learn, pray, and grow. Medicine is good because it can help control the symptoms and help you function, but the Lord can bring true healing. It may be years in the doing, but with God all things are possible.

Do you read much? Would you like some book recommendations? Are you facing particular stresses at this time, or is it more like something that has built up to this point?

Alan
 
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There is hope. Continue to learn, pray, and grow. Medicine is good because it can help control the symptoms and help you function, but the Lord can bring true healing. It may be years in the doing, but with God all things are possible.

Do you read much? Would you like some book recommendations? Are you facing particular stresses at this time, or is it more like something that has built up to this point?

Alan
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Hi Alan, I enjoy reading - I’m just about to start “Universal Father” Gary O’ Connor’s take on Pope Jon Paul II.

Obviously the depression makes my concentration difficult at times but I am open to recommendations.

I’m slightly nervous about tonight’s mass I have to say.
 
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I’m slightly nervous about tonight’s mass I have to say.
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Do you get anxious around the crowd, or specifically because of Mass? When I was first diagnosed with bipolar, I could not stay at Mass and had to keep ducking out. I don’t think it was because of Mass being said, but more likely because of all the people. People didn’t make sense to me and that was part of my problem, so having all those unpredictable people in one assembly made me nervous.

Alan
 
Andy, the Lord is always glad to have you come back even when you have been neglectful. And I am not sure that you have been intentionally neglectful since you have been quite ill. I am praying right now that the Lord will calm you and give you peace as you attend mass this evening. God bless you.
 
StranraerHibby said:
The title of this thread is actually one of my favourite Morrissey songs. However I think it applies to me at the moment.

The last three weeks have been the worst of my life. I have been in hospital and diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder. My depression and anxiety has been getting worse and on Wednesday I was admitted to hospital again after collapsing. I took a mixture of tablets I shouldn’t have.

During this time, I have neglected my very obvious duties to God and I feel extremely bad. I’m going to Mass tonight for the first time in a long while.

Can anyone give me advice? While I be forgiven?

Andy
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Yes, go to confession and church regularly. It will give you great confidence in your salvation. It will also improve your depression. If you can’t go to church on the weekends due to work there are masses in the mornings m-f at most churches.
 
I went to Saturday evening mass last night and I for the first time in a long time felt good! Everyone is welcoming and I just need to keep telling myself that people are there to help.

Usually the crowds bother me but if I get there early I’m not so bad.
 
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I went to Saturday evening mass last night and I for the first time in a long time felt good! Everyone is welcoming and I just need to keep telling myself that people are there to help.

Usually the crowds bother me but if I get there early I’m not so bad.
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That’s great! Is a celebration in order? :dancing:
 
StranraerHibby said:
I went to Saturday evening mass last night and I for the first time in a long time felt good! Everyone is welcoming and I just need to keep telling myself that people are there to help.

Usually the crowds bother me but if I get there early I’m not so bad.
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Glad you are feeling better! 🙂 Thank you Lord Jesus!
 
StranraerHibby said:
I went to Saturday evening mass last night and I for the first time in a long time felt good! Everyone is welcoming and I just need to keep telling myself that people are there to help.

Usually the crowds bother me but if I get there early I’m not so bad.
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Hibby,

You should go to confession regularly. Once a month typically, once a week until you feel more confident. Receive the Eucharist on Sundays or Saturdays after 4 PM (that is called the Vigil mass). If you can’t make it then you can go during the week. Most churches have services in the mornings M-F. Feel free to go during the week anyways. Jesus will be pleased. Give thanks for everything; that also pleases Jesus. There are some helpful web sites below. Get to know Jesus through His Mercy. There is a devotion to the Divine Mercy and it is explained in one of the sites linked to below. I believe that Jesus may have chosen you for this suffering so that you may help Him convert others to Catholicism and He can help you with the spiritual battle you are enduring. Do not fear He gives us all we need to accomplish His tasks. He is Lord. I suggest reading the diary of St. Faustina. A link to a site were you may purchase the diary is also below. St. Faustina went through similar trials and tribulations… so did I personally. The diary is awesome. It helped me a lot. Please read my other posts. Especially the one for the “Examination of Conscience for the Pure Gold Soul.” You can learn a lot from this post.

Divine Mercy Devotion:
ewtn.com/Devotionals/mercy/backgr.htm

Diary
secure.marianweb.net/giftshop/product.php?DID=101&PID=07110053&CATNAME=DIVINE+MERCY

Examination of Conscience for the Pure Gold Soul (link within this site)
forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?p=10677834#post10677834

May the Triune God bless you.
 
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