deep fear

[bibleman]

I have a deep fear of losing my faith. It has been said that we should fear nothing but offending God, but this fear I have of losing my faith is different than a holy fear. Its the “shivering scared” type of fear. I know something is not right with me and i am missing something since i have this deep fear.

 

[Bootoo]

bibleman:

I know something is not right with me and i am missing something since i have this deep fear.

I think maybe you are being too hard on yourself on this last part. Everyone fears losing faith, at times, especially since we know how easily it can be “lost”. But maybe it makes more sense to look at faith as a journey, and a road we travel down. Sometimes, for a while, we are so far away from the road that we can’t even see it, and might even forget that it exists, for a while. Sometimes we travel right down the middle of the road, and can see nothing in front of us but that road, for a while. Sometimes we walk at the side of the road, and sometimes we meander off, for a while, and then get back on it. For some of us, including me, this might be the way we always take this journey, through our lifetime. Lately I have been more “in the middle of the road” or “at the side of the road”, than “so far away that I can’t see the road”, and that is good. I am pretty sure I will never have a straight path down this road of faith, but as I say to God every night, “As long as I am struggling in my faith, then you are winning.”

And remember this–no matter how far away you get from the road, the road is not lost. Maybe you are, but the road isn’t.

 

[Ana]

Whenever I used to get that “deep terror”, I would break out my spiritual warfare prayers and say them daily. I always took it to mean a nasty was near by, their very presence is oppressive.

God bless!

 

[kayla]

Bibleman,
I’ll pray for yu…I know there are many of us that have been in your shoes, and many saints also.
Pray to our Blessed Lady to help bring you closer to your faith and Jesus…ask all the saints and angels in heaven to pray for you.
I wish you all the best.
God always be with you

 

[hilde_the_dog]

After having spent 20 years in the ditch along the road (thanks Bootoo) and having come home I was glad to find out St Augustine had so many problems. Boy did that make me feal better to read Confessions Hey if he had doubts and fears - what did he do pray, study and talk to your true friends

 

[Egg4christ]

Do you have close christian friends? i too feel this way from time to time. Like “What if God isn’t real”. I’m a very logical person, and you can basically use logic to prove anything (i actually saw someone right out mathmatically how 1+1=0… and it worked.) I start to tell myself that there is no way there could be a God…
But then i end up thinking of the things he’s done for me. The things that have gone on in my life, and how there are far too many to be coincidence.
My friends really help with that. In all honesty, everyone experiences doubt sometime, somewhere. It’s part of being attacked and being human.
I may actually help to memorize some quick prayers to recite to yourself when you feel doubt coming

Above all, DONT BELIEVE THE LIES. You are not a terrible christian because your faith is not constant. This is simply satan trying to bring you down. And you know, if satan is trying to bring you down, it’s because God has BIG plans for your life and your impact for the kingdom.
Keep strong
Keep us posted.