I know I have been nervous and I was born a Catholic. But it’s like I only truly got to understand what it meant when I reverted after having been a stubborn atheïst for years.
It was threshold after threshold… First entering a church again, attending mass, praying the rosary, …
We don’t have RCIA in Europe. Some priests do guide people who want to convert individually, telling them which parts of the Bible they should start with and so on, but there’s no real official track you can follow.
My husband and I would have been on our own if it weren’t for the internet. Things like Catholic Answers and YouTube video’s from Father (now Bishop) Barron helpt us out a great deal! Lectures from Peter Kreeft and Ravi Zacharias … Thank God for the internet!
We’ve had doubts (and they still turn up every once in a while) and we got nervous. I was especially nervous about my first Confession after I can’t remember how many years… The first time my husband and I prayed together made me very nervous, now it’s a daily habit. I’ve always considered nervousness a sign that you’re headed in the right direction. Like they say… whenever you get out of your comfort zone, you get scared. But once you get past the fear, you know you’re making progress.