safety14:
I so love the Rosary. Lately however, it’s been so hard to pray it. Vocal prayer in general is so difficult now. It’s been this way for a long time. Perhaps six months or more. Now when I go to mass I just want to sit in silence with the Lord. I lift up my heart and it seems so much deeper but i’m afraid of letting my devotions go. I feel like i’m in uncharted territory. I would appreciate anyones thoughts on this.
Dear friend
There is nothing wrong in sharing silence with Our Lord, it is as much prayer as anything else. Prayer is not meant to be a constant stream of words from yourself, it is also listening and you cannot listen unless you spend time in silence with the Lord. Few people find they can do this without their mind wandering or losing focus, so you are deeply blessed by God that you are able to rest in His peace and spend time listening in silence to the love He gives your heart and His wisdom.
The Lord has led you on this path and you should therefore embrace it regardless of any negative comments you may receive or ridicule you may come up against. Embrace it with your whole heart and be open to the work of the Holy Spirit within your heart. Let God do His work within your soul in these silent times you share with Him. Prayer is many things , it is a continual conversation with God that takes many forms and silence is one of them, where you listen or you share a comfortable silence with God.
Relying on our feelings when praying is NOT good. Regardless of how we feel, we should persevere in prayer. Therefore if it feels you are just unable to say the Rosary, pray for fortitude and , then, pick up your Rosary and pray it, do it, just pick it up and pray it, because in this is great sufferance and this is a strengthening of faith, this is an obedience to God, regardless of HOW YOU FEEL. It is possible in Christ Jesus to pray ourselves through these dry times in prayer just by perseverance and God’s grace. Ask for fortitude and perseverance.
Discipline yourself and ask the Lord to help you to have discipline.
God Bless you and much love and peace to you
Teresa