is it wrong to not ask God to be healed of a disability. i always thought that i learned a lot from it and that i can use to do God’s work regardless.
but people say that i don’t have enough faith if i’m not healed since Jesus healed everyone who asked him to. and also, the works of God displayed in the blind man was the healing, not that fact that the man was blind and could do God’s work in any other way. i’m a bit confused.
Yet also, why did God not let Aaron’s sons who had a disability become levited? i feel like i’m not good enough to serve him sometimes. but then there was Moses with his speech impairment and God said not to worry and that he would help.
any thoughts?
God could, if He wished, heal your disability in the blink of an eye, just as Christ healed the blind man, gave the deaf man his hearing, the 10 lepers were cured as they went to the priests etc.
However my experience is that He doesn’t usually heal people of their disabilities. To be quite frank, I haven’t heard of a single instance of a person healed of a disability. I’ve heard of a few accounts of people healed miraculously of cancer, but so far I haven’t heard of anybody being healed of a disability. No doubt it happens, but I haven’t heard of any cases.
Yet I’m well aware God’s there. I’ve had far too many spiritual experiences for that. So much so, that I don’t even like Him sometimes, to the point of bordering on disillusionment. And part of the reason is that I’m so much aware of His reality, that His inability or refusal to act more openly is quite irritating. As my old pastor once said to me, “He doesn’t seem to help His own people much.”
St. Paul asked three times for healing for some anonymous “thorn in the flesh”, but it was refused. I think it was just after that he got the reply, “My strength is perfected in your weakness”.
I presume by that God can make it clear that if supernatural or spiritual things are happening, it is not by virtue of a person’s strengths, but in spite of their weaknesses, and that God is the one doing it.
Then there’s the question of suffering, in which the corporate suffering of the members of Christ’s Church help to fill up His own suffering, as St. Paul explained.
So perhaps there are two things to consider here -
- Your suffering due to your disability may be helping to fill up Christ’s suffering.
- God may work through you in some big way, despite your weaknesses. If He does, it will be clear that He is the one doing the work, because it will be obvious you couldn’t do it in your own strength.
Then again, He might heal you, but you’d be very much in the minority if He does.
Finally as a disabled person, how people treat you is how they’d treat Christ. God then knows their hearts.