One you don’t want to commit. If you do so you’ll only make the problem worse, not only with your relationship with God, but also with your life here on earth. I know thats a tough one to obey, but trust and be faithful and you’ll be more blessed than you could think otherwise.
Think of it this way. You could disobey the rules and drive down the wrong lane. You put yourself at risk as well as the others, of death or injury. You make others lose their trust that the roads are safe. You get into bad habits, think that it is ok. Eventually if enough people disregard the rules of the road, no one is free to go anywhere in the city. If you get anywhere, you put yourself at huge risk and it takes even longer.
So please don’t do it. I’m sure you both are lonely, make sure you go out and make as mean meaningful relationships with as many different types of people as possible. Tough I know, I’ll pray for you.