Ex trans my story through faith

[teddyruxpin76]

I thought I might help some of the parents who are struggling with A “Trans Child”, I myself have struggled with these issues for 17 years, now 30 I left the catholic church simply because I was rejecting the Idea of christianity. At age 9 or so I had extreme feelings of trans identity issues, at the time no one really talked about it and it wasnt such a relevant topic as it is today. Anyways, I began to pervert sexuality at a young age, and I didnt understand why. While I was a baby, I had an emergency baptism, I was at the point of dying, doctors couldnt find out what was happening to me. My parents are catholic, however not all my family members are within the church, They were practicing pagans/satanists. When I recieved my emergency baptism, Gods grace helped me, and I was spared death. Back to Age 9, I started by mixing my toys ex. Batman for barbies and I started to learn that it was okay. My parents didnt freak out or tell me I wasnt supposed to be. My Family structure, seemed normal, however My mother would be the decision maker in the family, my father was just there. This caused me to look at my situation, and consider my mom as the authority figure. Years passed and in Highschool I started experimenting with transvestism and spiraled into a depression due to bullying, and I also became an abuser.

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[teddyruxpin76]

I kept to myself, even in elementary, as I was taugh that there are no friends and people only use you. Broken and lost I continued into college wearing make up, womens clothing and visiting gay bars, I hung out with different types of Gay men believing that there wasnt anything wrong with me, that I felt accepted and was welcomed, and that wasnt true. Later I kept spiraling into different things like astrology, tarot cards, free writing(where I found out later it is allowing a demon to use your hand like a ouija board), crystals, pendulums, “ghost” communication, and other occult practices. Oddly enough through my struggles I still prayed in a state of mortal sin. After being on and off, I began to search for answers and came across the Image of the Divine Mercy, I felt drawn to Jesus and couldnt understand how a sinner like me was allowed pardon and mercy. I was still hanging around gay bars and frequenting gay areas and ran scross a group eho calls themselves the Sisters of Perpetual Help, where gay men wear habits and paint their faces similar to black metal. And that made me feel sick to my stomach, it wasnt the years of abuse with smoking and alcohol, but this yet I was still trying to find my identity, I was born catholic and chose to get on the road to the cross. Now 30 I came across confession after 17 years worth of sins and found out that in my childhood I came across an image of a demon, the Image had features of both male and female parts. This I confessed to my confessor, who also was an exorcist, I had no Idea how profound Gods love is for me, I felt like I had no help, but the Church has provided more than enough help, remember this is my story, I am only filling in a brief glimpse through the road of what might be on your loved ones life, it may or may not help, but there is always hope through Jesus and Our Blessed Mother. Pray for them as not everyone can see, be their light and keep going to Mass and confession recieve the sacraments, because the devil and his minions are out there waiting for the ruin of souls, and theyre embedded in many things be vigilant!

 

[Beryllos]

Thanks for posting your story. I often pray for children, teens, and young adults who are led astray by media (entertainment, social media, advertising) and peer culture, and often morally weakened by substance use and abuse. I will pray also for you, in thanksgiving for God’s active grace in your life, and for your continuing progress on your spiritual journey. God bless!

 

[teddyruxpin76]

It has been a hard road, Dealing with different types of snares out there, its soneasy to fall into and not even realize it, many sickening things are happening and sadly peers help enable you even if the choice is yours, I chose to be that way, this whole I was born this way garbage is so not true, we are allowing to many things to be normalized and trans issues should not be allowed for children, let alone adults! I also pray for my generation as even in class people did satanic pagan rituals as projects. We miss these things when we are broken by our own misery… i thank you for reading and May the Lord be with you as well, I too will pray for you!

 

[teddyruxpin76]

I also partook in making fun of people, being a bully and having no compassion towards my neighbor, I was bullied and didnt stand up towards it so I fell into the same cycle of doing the same to others