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Walterross
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Hi everyone. So last night I fell into mortal sin again. I was reading a few articles on overcoming this sin and came across the vision of hell by St. John Bosco. I read it and, needless to say, I was terrified and went to confession this morning. Although I’m glad I’m in a state of grace again, after reading the vision, I feel very sad and fearful. I am sad because it basically reveals that many good-intentioned people are going to go to hell. I’m also scared because I know that it just as well could be me. I almost feel paralyzed in life right now. I feel like I might be doing God’s will more out of fear now than out of love. I understand that fear of the Lord is important, but I am more scared than full of love now. I tend to think that most people are truly trying their best in their lives given certain circumstances. I can’t imagine being sentenced to hell for a “slip” or “mistake” in this very challenging life. I know I’ll never know until judgement comes, but I’m scared. I want to share this story with family and friends but I’m afraid to scare them into being scared of God, like I am. I’m sure I’ll feel better soon but hearing this story just makes me sad and almost hopeless for the salvation of humanity. I know Jesus died for us all, but we do have to choose him. I just feel like the majority will not make it based on that vision, and to me that is upsetting. Does anyone else have fears like this and how do you cope with them while staying close to God?