Feel Abandoned by God

[Sean59]

Hello, I’ve been struggling lately and could really use some advice. I’ve fallen deep into serious sin during quarantine, and didn’t get to confession for over 2.5 months.
Yesterday, I finally got the chance to go to confession. I began confessing, but the priest cut me off less than a minute in, and immediately gave me penance and absolution. I did not get to confess numerous sins, including mortal sins. I am not sure why this happened. Since yesterday, I have felt completely unforgiven and rejected by God. Usually after I go to confession, peace fills my soul and I have the strength to move on. This time, I feel like God is angry with me and has not forgiven many of my sins.
Last night was very difficult for me. I felt like I was completely cut off from God, and I felt like I would fall into Hell. I have never felt such a deep abandonment and spiritual pain before. I have been battling against despair and vile/demonic thoughts that assail my mind when I try to meditate. I am not sure if I am in a state of grace or not, and I am deeply worried that God has completely left me. I am going to Mass tonight, but I am not sure if I am eligible to receive communion. And no, I am not scrupulous.
Please pray for me. I feel like my prayers are unanswered by God. And please pray for the priest I confessed to.

 

[TheLittleLady]

Hugs.

If your priest absolved you, you are absolved. He could have been in a hurry to start Mass or to go anoint a dying person.

Usually after I go to confession, peace fills my soul and I have the strength to move on.

This is why we are told not to rely on our feelings.

I’d suggest making an appointment to talk to your priest about spiritual matters.

 

[Tis_Bearself]

Yesterday, I finally got the chance to go to confession. I began confessing, but the priest cut me off less than a minute in, and immediately gave me penance and absolution. I did not get to confess numerous sins, including mortal sins. I am not sure why this happened.

I’m guessing that the priest had a lot of confessions to hear, given that you’re not the only person who hasn’t been able to go during quarantine, and he didn’t need to hear a whole laundry list.
Or, as Little Lady suggested, he had other matters like needing to visit the sick/ dying or make some preparation for restarting Mass.

You didn’t withhold reciting the list of sins because you were trying to hide them, you simply didn’t get to say all the sins because the priest, being short on time, stopped you.

Assuming you’re repentant of the sin, then you’re absolved, whether you have peaceful “feelings” or not. Our absolution doesn’t depend on our feelings.

This time, I feel like God is angry with me and has not forgiven many of my sins.
Last night was very difficult for me. I felt like I was completely cut off from God, and I felt like I would fall into Hell. I have never felt such a deep abandonment and spiritual pain before. I have been battling against despair and vile/demonic thoughts that assail my mind when I try to meditate. I am not sure if I am in a state of grace or not, and I am deeply worried that God has completely left me. I am going to Mass tonight, but I am not sure if I am eligible to receive communion. And no, I am not scrupulous.

I don’t mean to sound harsh, but this is an overreaction to a priest simply being in a rush. It is not a normal reaction.
When things have gotten a bit less hectic at your parish, please consider making an appointment with your priest to discuss this.

 

[PetraG]

I have never felt such a deep abandonment and spiritual pain before. I have been battling against despair and vile/demonic thoughts that assail my mind when I try to meditate. I am not sure if I am in a state of grace or not, and I am deeply worried that God has completely left me.

Can I suggest these podcasts explaining the Ignatian method for the discernment of spirits? I have found them very instructive and edifying.

Fr. Timothy Gallagher – Discernment of Spirits

and also

The 14 Rules for Discerning of Spirits - "The Different Movements Which Are Caused In The Soul"

His explanation of the rules of St. Ignatius is based on many decades of spiritual direction. Don’t miss them.

 

[Dorothy]

It sounds like the priest had mistakenly thought you were finished and then began the absolution. As others have said, speak to a priest and explain what you have said here.

I pray you have peace…you went in good faith and unfortunately something happened that shouldn’t have.

God bless you!