J
JerseyCatholic
Guest
Hi, everyone, I have only posted on here a handful of times. I felt like this was a place that I could come to for advice. I am 23, and getting ready to finish my Master’s in May. About 2 and a half years ago, I felt as if I might be called to the priesthood. It was something that I felt like I did not want to do. However, I know that in life it is not as I will, but rather as God will’s. I prayed about this, and decided that I was going to let God tell me what His will for my life was. I decided to join a Catholic online dating site, and met a young lady who I was in a relationship with until about 5 months ago. The reasons for which that relationship ended I am not going to get into at the moment.
Fast forward to last week, when I was at mass, and was asked by the priest to do the readings. I hadn’t done readings at mass since I was in high school, and it felt good to do that again. On the way back to my apartment, I started to hear that same call that I heard before I met my ex-girlfriend, the call to be a Fisher of Men (I did watch that video, and it was AMAZING, but back to the topic at hand.) These past few days, I have been praying the rosary, and diving into Scripture. I know after work on Friday, I am going to go to the Perpetual Adoration chapel about a half hour from here and be with God. I’ve felt closer to God than I have ever felt in my life over these past few days.
What is the problem then, you are probably asking yourself. Well, I had all these ideas for what my life was going to be like, I envisioned myself marrying and having children. It is a hard idea for me to give up (because, let’s face it, there are few things in life more beautiful than a pure, chaste, Catholic woman.) I am also in a job that I love in a field that I see myself having great potential in. However, a few days ago, that started to change to. Working at a college, I always felt joy in knowing that I had some impact on student’s lives, especially at one of its most critical points. But lately at my job, I have felt like something is missing, and it is not fulfilling for me anymore.
In short, what I am looking for is some advice, and more importantly, prayer. I look forward to hearing from you all, and you all are in my morning prayers, everyday.
Fast forward to last week, when I was at mass, and was asked by the priest to do the readings. I hadn’t done readings at mass since I was in high school, and it felt good to do that again. On the way back to my apartment, I started to hear that same call that I heard before I met my ex-girlfriend, the call to be a Fisher of Men (I did watch that video, and it was AMAZING, but back to the topic at hand.) These past few days, I have been praying the rosary, and diving into Scripture. I know after work on Friday, I am going to go to the Perpetual Adoration chapel about a half hour from here and be with God. I’ve felt closer to God than I have ever felt in my life over these past few days.
What is the problem then, you are probably asking yourself. Well, I had all these ideas for what my life was going to be like, I envisioned myself marrying and having children. It is a hard idea for me to give up (because, let’s face it, there are few things in life more beautiful than a pure, chaste, Catholic woman.) I am also in a job that I love in a field that I see myself having great potential in. However, a few days ago, that started to change to. Working at a college, I always felt joy in knowing that I had some impact on student’s lives, especially at one of its most critical points. But lately at my job, I have felt like something is missing, and it is not fulfilling for me anymore.
In short, what I am looking for is some advice, and more importantly, prayer. I look forward to hearing from you all, and you all are in my morning prayers, everyday.
They havent done so bad either having been declared blessed, so if you are called to family life its not a lesser call. Anyway I will pray that you are open to God`s will. I know how hard it is to let go and let God do the leading since Im in the early stages of discerning my own possible vocation to the religious life.
As for the priest that is 4.5 hours away, thats no excuse, phone him! Get a long distance calling card if it will give you a better rate, phone him, tell him what you want to talk about and arrange a better time to have a longer talk.