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Hey all,
God is good I’ve been having a really rough time lately with a lot of things going on in my life, and the only one I’ve been able to talk to about them is God…the problem with this is I am also having a really hard time remembering that God is there and listening to me…it feels like I am really completely alone, talking only out of habit and with no really conviction that He is listening.
One of the things that I’ve been struggling with is my family. It’s really a mess right now, for many reasons. One thing that’s really been testing me is my oldest sister, who used to have an incredible faith but has severely drifted away from it. I can’t talk to her like I used to because we’re so different now, and she always makes me so uncomfortable because of some of the things she talks about…I can’t believe that she would ever do those things, not with the knowlege of her God and her faith, but still she does…and it’s been hurting me a lot that there’s little I can do to try to bring her back.
I’ve been praying to God about this for some time, and, almost confirming my doubts, nothing has changed. This week a lot of the stuff, including this, hit me really, really hard, and I was so close to completely breaking down. I totally just felt like giving up everything.
Then this morning, my brother came into my room with the phone, and told me it was her on the other line…I picked up to hear her say, “Britty, I just needed to tell you that I love you.” It didn’t really sink in because I was caught so off guard. I returned the blessing, and she told me that she had had a horrible dream, and that she had found out in it how much she needed to tell me that she loved me…she wouldn’t tell me what the dream was, but it really scared her…anyway, after that we talked for a little bit, just sister to sister…not about anything important, just stuff like homecoming and the recent mullit I was given in a bad haircut…but it felt so good, and after we hung up, i realized how much I had needed to hear that from someone, especially her.
God answers prayers…that phone call helped me so much, when all I had been begging God for was something to get me through, to help me feel like I still had some purpose, that I would make it. Even though nothing is really better, I know that it can get better, and my faith continues to be restored each time God shows me that He’s listening.
Just thought I’d share
God bless,
In Him,
Britty
God is good I’ve been having a really rough time lately with a lot of things going on in my life, and the only one I’ve been able to talk to about them is God…the problem with this is I am also having a really hard time remembering that God is there and listening to me…it feels like I am really completely alone, talking only out of habit and with no really conviction that He is listening.
One of the things that I’ve been struggling with is my family. It’s really a mess right now, for many reasons. One thing that’s really been testing me is my oldest sister, who used to have an incredible faith but has severely drifted away from it. I can’t talk to her like I used to because we’re so different now, and she always makes me so uncomfortable because of some of the things she talks about…I can’t believe that she would ever do those things, not with the knowlege of her God and her faith, but still she does…and it’s been hurting me a lot that there’s little I can do to try to bring her back.
I’ve been praying to God about this for some time, and, almost confirming my doubts, nothing has changed. This week a lot of the stuff, including this, hit me really, really hard, and I was so close to completely breaking down. I totally just felt like giving up everything.
Then this morning, my brother came into my room with the phone, and told me it was her on the other line…I picked up to hear her say, “Britty, I just needed to tell you that I love you.” It didn’t really sink in because I was caught so off guard. I returned the blessing, and she told me that she had had a horrible dream, and that she had found out in it how much she needed to tell me that she loved me…she wouldn’t tell me what the dream was, but it really scared her…anyway, after that we talked for a little bit, just sister to sister…not about anything important, just stuff like homecoming and the recent mullit I was given in a bad haircut…but it felt so good, and after we hung up, i realized how much I had needed to hear that from someone, especially her.
God answers prayers…that phone call helped me so much, when all I had been begging God for was something to get me through, to help me feel like I still had some purpose, that I would make it. Even though nothing is really better, I know that it can get better, and my faith continues to be restored each time God shows me that He’s listening.
Just thought I’d share
God bless,
In Him,
Britty