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My two favorite saints are Mary of Egypt and Pelagia the Penitent. I guess what I like about them is their drastic change of lifestyle. I liked that they did everything wholeheartedly. It may be an issue of pride, I HATE BEING TOLD TO DO ANYTHING. It may be pride, or my upbringing or a combination of both. I have all-or-nothing mindset which can be curse. I like feel their repentance felt like a choice. I DO NOT LIKE DOING THINGS OUT OF FEAR OR INSECURITY.I guess I should be scared of hell. That should not be the only reason to avoid wrongdoing. The world is a scary place as it is. They choose to live inappropriately for years, then they chose turn to their life around for God. I do not see the point in being a grumpy Christian. I ultimately DO NOT HAVE TO FOLLOW THOSE RULES. If I choose to do, I SHOULD AT LEAST BE HAPPY DOING THEM. I am not saying you should only do what makes you happy. Ultimately religion is not like work, it should not be treated like a chore. Sure there is a lot of talk about sin, persecution, suffering, but if God did not promise us something greater than our earthly pleasures, why repent? My guess it ultimately our sins do not truly leaves us happy.
My post may not be clear. Every now and then, I think why am I doing this to myself? I do not have to follow God if I do not want to. As much I HATE THE RULES, RESPONSIBILITY, HAVING TO FACE MY OWN HUMAN SHORTCOMINGS & THAT EVERY LITTLE THING IS CONSIDERED A SIN, I try my best to abide - I actually like going to church, I want to find freedom, happiness and I ultimately want to find the truth.
My post may not be clear. Every now and then, I think why am I doing this to myself? I do not have to follow God if I do not want to. As much I HATE THE RULES, RESPONSIBILITY, HAVING TO FACE MY OWN HUMAN SHORTCOMINGS & THAT EVERY LITTLE THING IS CONSIDERED A SIN, I try my best to abide - I actually like going to church, I want to find freedom, happiness and I ultimately want to find the truth.