Howdy from one cowgirl to another!
**This is a great question, and one which I have often wondered about myself. I figure that when it’s my will it usually causes me or others pain or sorrow; when it’s God’s will no sorrow or pain is caused to me or to anyone else. If I have to confess it later, well, you know, what I have to confess was my will and not God’s! God would have me confess, of course, but when I do something that is confessable then of course that’s my will not His!! **
**When I am focussed on only myself that is not God’s will either, that is my will. When I’m selfseeking, same story. I have to become aware of my motives to determine what is my will and what’s God’s. When I am not turning my will and my life over to God then I am on selfwill. I have to surrender to God daily, sometimes hourly, to elevate myself above selfwill. **
When I am angry with others again I am in selfwill. God’s will is to love! God’s will is compassion! Mother Teresa is a great one to read to understand God’s will, I think. Also Padre Pio. And Henry Nouwen. It helps me to do spiritual reading of devoted Catholics who understand God’s will, in order for me to grow in my understanding.
I know that when I am in doubt, when I am in sorrow or despair or anger, I am not in God’s will, I am in selfwill. As soon as I realize this I try to pray and draw closer to Our Lord again, asking for His loving arms to bring me closer to Him, that I may abandon my selfwill and seek His again. It works!
And of course, Holy Communion and Confession, absolutely!!
Let us know how it rides, cowgirl!
**Geraldine :tiphat: **