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Hello 
I would like to share my story and I appreciate any insight to the developing of the last ocurring events. It’s a bit long, but I’ll try to make it as short as I can.
Last year I ended a 2 year relationship with my boyfriend because he had a porn addiction. He was willing to overcome this problem and I gave him all the support I could, until it was too painful for me. God made me know that it was the best to let him go. We left the door open for possible reconciliation if he healed from his addiction. Before the breakup, we had a wonderful relationship, we were both deeply in love, supported each other, understood each other, were able to solve conflicts in a constructive way and our personalities complimented each other very well.
9 months after the breakup, he was finally healed from his addiction (his process lasted about a year and a half in total), I had healed from the pain of feeling like I wasn’t enough and we decided to get back together.
But, it feels as though that spark he lit in my eyes before is gone. It’s not that I find him repulsive or anything, but it’s true that I can’t say that my heart flutters like before, even though I still love him deeply. It’s been a month since we got back together.
Ever since the begining of our relationship, I prayed for his conversion, I prayed for his recovery, and God granted all of the things I had always prayed for him to have. His addiction was the crack in his heart that God used to get inside again. He’s now active in church, values chastity, has a bigger degree of self consciousness, has improved in his personal life habits dramatically and he’s just an even better man that he was before. He is all of the things that I expected him to be if I had the chance to reunite with him if he arrived to a life of freedom from sin, literally, pretty much everything, including a man who wants that we both receive spiritual guidance in our relationship with a priest…something I only dreamed of and never told him about.
Since we got back together, I noticed that at times, some of his manerisms, sometimes his laugh bothered me, and I felt disconected from him at times. Before he was unique in my eyes, from head to toe, but now, he doesn’t amaze me like he used to, and not because he’s entirely different, but I’ve noticed these things.
What puzzles me the most is that up until the same day we agreed to see each other again to talk (I asked him to meet me for coffee because we had spent almost 3 weeks texting non stop after a long period of no contact that we both agreed in order to heal and I wanted to know if the conditions for this conversations were the right ones, meaning, if he was free from his addiction), my love for him, my excitement for him was completely intact, or maybe it had grown despite the distance, but from the right moment I said yes to him again, I started to feel a bit of disconection, that has grown stronger as the days have gone by.
I would like to share my story and I appreciate any insight to the developing of the last ocurring events. It’s a bit long, but I’ll try to make it as short as I can.
Last year I ended a 2 year relationship with my boyfriend because he had a porn addiction. He was willing to overcome this problem and I gave him all the support I could, until it was too painful for me. God made me know that it was the best to let him go. We left the door open for possible reconciliation if he healed from his addiction. Before the breakup, we had a wonderful relationship, we were both deeply in love, supported each other, understood each other, were able to solve conflicts in a constructive way and our personalities complimented each other very well.
9 months after the breakup, he was finally healed from his addiction (his process lasted about a year and a half in total), I had healed from the pain of feeling like I wasn’t enough and we decided to get back together.
But, it feels as though that spark he lit in my eyes before is gone. It’s not that I find him repulsive or anything, but it’s true that I can’t say that my heart flutters like before, even though I still love him deeply. It’s been a month since we got back together.
Ever since the begining of our relationship, I prayed for his conversion, I prayed for his recovery, and God granted all of the things I had always prayed for him to have. His addiction was the crack in his heart that God used to get inside again. He’s now active in church, values chastity, has a bigger degree of self consciousness, has improved in his personal life habits dramatically and he’s just an even better man that he was before. He is all of the things that I expected him to be if I had the chance to reunite with him if he arrived to a life of freedom from sin, literally, pretty much everything, including a man who wants that we both receive spiritual guidance in our relationship with a priest…something I only dreamed of and never told him about.
Since we got back together, I noticed that at times, some of his manerisms, sometimes his laugh bothered me, and I felt disconected from him at times. Before he was unique in my eyes, from head to toe, but now, he doesn’t amaze me like he used to, and not because he’s entirely different, but I’ve noticed these things.
What puzzles me the most is that up until the same day we agreed to see each other again to talk (I asked him to meet me for coffee because we had spent almost 3 weeks texting non stop after a long period of no contact that we both agreed in order to heal and I wanted to know if the conditions for this conversations were the right ones, meaning, if he was free from his addiction), my love for him, my excitement for him was completely intact, or maybe it had grown despite the distance, but from the right moment I said yes to him again, I started to feel a bit of disconection, that has grown stronger as the days have gone by.