Well, at that time, coming to Church in Sunday’s was far from my practice, although I was seeking after God. I don’t think that there were any symptoms of an illness, in fact, I believe that two of these ecstasies, God the father was present to me, but it was not exactly coming directly from him. I have had Catholic ecstasies only a few, and they were not an upwelling from my lowest chakra so to speak, they were just given. The four kundalini were an upwelling and I believe a natural phenomena of some kind. Symptoms. I can not really put my finger on why I think they are an occult or preternatural phrnomenona, except for the fact that maybe I perceived them years later to be dark of some kind, compared to a Catholic ecstasy. I was baptized as an infant, and confirmed as a youth, so I had those graces. I think the symptom biggest for me is that somehow the kundalini raising was dark and even if I say it, seemingly occult, dark. I felt, years later, which is probably worth saying if you are asking this, I felt years later that darkness was still with me, so I went to confession, and afterwards, I prayed exorcism prayers for myself. That seemed to have taken care of it for me, as now, I feel that darkness, or occult light, is not in me anymore. That’s all I need for me personally, is to know that those days are gone, and I am far from what led me to these experiences of kundalini. Symptoms?.. a dark spot on my soul, now, it is outside of my soul, better for me.
