thelightoftheworld:
…I’ve heard a few definitions of the sin/blasphemy against the Holy Spirit but I don’t know if I’m in that case. …
Sins against the Holy Spirit have six species: 1) Despair; 2) Presumption; 3) Impenitence or a firm determination not to repent; 4) Obstinacy; 5) Resisting divine truth known to be such; and 6) Envy of another’s spiritual welfare.
Got a reference to those species?
I ask because I think they’re way too general, but also would probably do more harm than good for the OP to contemplate (given his/her level of discernment) without more clarification. The OP went to confession in a penitent frame of mind, so - if those terms were misunderstood (and, hence, misapplied) it would likely breed scruples, which could be counter productive to positive formation and spiritual growth.
Many Saints have spoken about Priests who hear confession and dont know what they are doing. They go too harsh when mercy is whats called for. A misunderstanding of such general terms to the lay ear is probably not very healthy.
I’ll attest to it, if no one else.
Take #3 , #4 and #5 in comparison to #1, and assume a penitent had a really bad tendency to backslide, when in fact they were having trouble with a repetitive sin (which we all have). Suppose the person has to confront a bad at some point, and they give way, as a habitual sin; they might regard this as despair and think all hope is lost. Then they decide to turn back and go to confession again, and they find themselves wondering if they aren’t guilty of presumption. So why go? In such a case, it is as if faith is arguably only a merciless sort of obstinacy, whereby the sacrament is received begrudgingly and mechanically, as if penance wasn’t a grace but a punishment.
I’m not a Priest, but I would hazard a guess what is probably best isnt to keep adding sin upon sin in an effort to root out a cause, but probably more to look at the sacrament as an opportunity to heal and experience the graces of Christ’s mercy. There seems to be a better lesson in recognizing the goodness in it than laboring the guilt.
The guilt drives us to confession, if it is justified, but scruples shouldn’t. But - in either case - it is the goodness, mercy and grace of Christ that creates the redemptive transformation.
I dont wish to contradict you. It’s just I dont think it’s what the OP is asking for. References may help clarify what you said, though.