Dear Friends,
I have not shared something on this scale with you before and I just feel now is the time to share it. Patience may be required!!!
In a nutshell;
I was diagnosed with cancer in January 2001 and underwent daily radiotherapy for over a month. Thank God, it all cleared up and all medical personnel involved were delighted with my progress and my tolerance. I would go to work and then on the way home, I would go for my 2 min blast and then go home. Same each day for a month. No sickness no tiredness nothing.
A very close eye was kept on me for the next while including scans, blood tests etc. All was progressing very very well. My body was clear. Not even a chemical trace of cancer could be found.
In July of 2002 I decided to carry out the 33 day prep for total consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus through the Immacualte Heart of Mary, the DeMontfort method in thanksgiving and I had planned to finish it on the 15th of August at the Chapel of Apparitions in Fatima, Portugal.
One night as I was finishing my prayers, and leaving my room, I became intensly aware of the following words “Are you willing to suffer again?” coming from Our Blessed Mother. My response was immediate “You know I am, Of course I will” and that was that. To be honest folks, I forgot the experience after a few days.
Some weeks after I began to get a sharp pain in my hip similar to artheritic pain and put it down to muscle pain or some other osteo muscular problem. It got worse and steadily worsened rapidly. I was diagnosed with groin strain, kidney infection, and would you believe I was actually told that my pain could be from the constancly of genuflection!! Oh Boy!!! Anyway I was put on antibiotics and painkillers etc.
The pain got a little easier but did not go away. Then in class in front of my students I was taking extreme sweats for no reason and without exertion. Now I knew something was wrong. I returned to my specialist and he assured me that from all the tests he had received cancer would not be an option and each and every test was clear up to the previous two months. Not even present on a microscale.
He sent me for a hip scan and they discovered a tumour 8cm x 7cm in a region that was clear 2 months previous. Not only that. They discovered that it had interfered with my right kidney whcih was only functioning at 30%.
Anyway intensive chemotherapy followed and their aim was to reduce the tumour to 3cm. If it remained >3cm then surgery was necessary. If it was <3cm then they were going to leave it and monitor it.
When they did the final scan after 3 months of chemo there was no trace of the tumour. My kidney had also normalised, in fact they quoted by calculation that it was at 110% function. Better than normal.
I now believe that the Lord needed my acceptence of suffering and time of trust in order to accomplish some good. I will never know why, but there again I don’t need to.
My latest results show a very healthy blood pressure and great levels of fitness. I have never exercised in my life above the normal running from class to class.
I am not for one moment saying I am a victim soul. I am simply now very aware that my suffering was necessary. I believe I was given an option. I chose to accept. After all any heart consecrated to Our Lady will imitate her virtues in every situation.
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. I know why you had a laugh and I am glad I made you laugh, it is good to know someone smiled because of me!