I started to re-evaluate my ideas & suddenly had the urge to find the truth. Had the urge to find good books on Christianity. I got the Renzo Allegri book about Padre Pio called Padre Pio: Man of Hope which was so wonderful & moving & I highly recommend.
The one that took my doubts away completely in God & that Jesus existed was:
What happened to me? Reflections of a journey by Randall Niles (Brilliant book) Then other books that lead me back to the Catholic church & I still get books to deepen my faith.
The most recent book I got was about St Paul & is brilliant & I highly recommend which is: The Catholic Perspective on Paul: Paul and the Origins of Catholic Christianity by Taylor Marshall
I also got books regarding Eucharistic Miracles, the saints, Fatima etc.
I’m still on my journey & now know it’s all real & that the Catholic church is the one true Catholic & apostolic church & that Jesus is Lord & the redeemer & saviour of the World.