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Paris_Blues
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HELP ME!!! 
Remember how I was terribly feared by the fact of the Eucharistic Miracles? I was convinced that it happened and could happen, because ANYTHING is possible with God
Now, after reading this, (if you have the time, read ALL)
madredelleucaristia.it/eng/miracles.htm I suddenly had this feeling that what if it was just to decieve people and the people made it up (I know, whack me on the head for even thinking a thought like that!
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! You guys have no clue how frustrated I am with myself for not believing, yet I want to believe and have a desire to believe it can happen (sounds like a contradiction, I know). I donât get itâŚa couple weeks ago, I believed, but now Iâm to the point of itâs impossible.
Why is my heart hardened by this true fact (hopefully, itâs true!) and Iâm trying to âlightenâ my heart to believe but I canât do it. I DONâT want my heart hardened by it. Yet my soul feels saddened because I canât believe when I know it could be true. Itâs like thereâs a part of me that says itâs impossible! and thereâs a part of me that tells me, itâs true, believe! And then the two feelings âfightâ with each other, giving me the results of ânot knowingâ. Know what Iâm talking about?
Iâve been praying about this a lot (yes, even to Mary even!) to open my heart again to it and help me believe but nothing happens. What on earth is going on? Am I being tested?
And I really DONâT want to disappoint Christ, Mary, etc.
Now what?

Remember how I was terribly feared by the fact of the Eucharistic Miracles? I was convinced that it happened and could happen, because ANYTHING is possible with God

Now, after reading this, (if you have the time, read ALL)
madredelleucaristia.it/eng/miracles.htm I suddenly had this feeling that what if it was just to decieve people and the people made it up (I know, whack me on the head for even thinking a thought like that!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! You guys have no clue how frustrated I am with myself for not believing, yet I want to believe and have a desire to believe it can happen (sounds like a contradiction, I know). I donât get itâŚa couple weeks ago, I believed, but now Iâm to the point of itâs impossible.
Why is my heart hardened by this true fact (hopefully, itâs true!) and Iâm trying to âlightenâ my heart to believe but I canât do it. I DONâT want my heart hardened by it. Yet my soul feels saddened because I canât believe when I know it could be true. Itâs like thereâs a part of me that says itâs impossible! and thereâs a part of me that tells me, itâs true, believe! And then the two feelings âfightâ with each other, giving me the results of ânot knowingâ. Know what Iâm talking about?
Iâve been praying about this a lot (yes, even to Mary even!) to open my heart again to it and help me believe but nothing happens. What on earth is going on? Am I being tested?

And I really DONâT want to disappoint Christ, Mary, etc.
