Help a scrupulous person please?

[LoveHeals]

Hello, brothers and sisters! I’m new to this site and I’d like to hear your opinions. It’s quite a complicated thing, I guess, and perhaps I’m overreacting a bit.

I suffer from scrupulosity and, for the past months, I have been leaving some things behind since I don’t know if I am sinning or not with them. To not feel very guilty about it, I just find it better to leave it behind.

Well. I’m a pretty creative person, and coming up with stories and characters has always been one of my favourite hobbies. I used to be a part of an online community where we all created characters and posted them for others to see it and for us to interact - characters related to fairytales, heroes, and that kind of stuff. Pretty childish, but I’ve always found it a good way for relaxing and spending time.
Most members in this site were not Christians, and most of them had a pretty solid point of view on religion. They created a lot of characters who were homosexual, pagan or even related to occultism. Before my conversion, I didn’t really see a big problem with it, but now I do. And then I decided to leave it behind too, but I tried to come back creating my own characters who were fine within my conscience. Nothing harmful.
Recently, I stopped being part of this site, but eventually checked on it to see if anyone commented on my characters/stories and anything. However, I feel like participating in this community is some sort of sin, even if I am not creating a content similar to that of the people who are also part of this site?
For example, someone who used to be a friend of mine from that site (and who I don’t think is a Christian) offered a relationship between our characters some months ago. I agreed, and to be kind I said that his character was cool. A character who was homosexual and had some superhero powers, and was part of something related to the Arthurian legends. Even if I have already confessed, I feel guilty over it. I don’t know.

I know it sounds scrupulous, but I wanted your opinion if I should or not still be creating characters for this site. Or if it is wrong for me to be a part of a community like this.

I also ask that you pray for me, that I might get over this scrupulosity with the help of the Blessed Virgin Mary. I have been suffering a lot but I know that I will overcome it!

Thank you all and have a great day! <3

 

[LoveHeals]

I shall. Just need to be less shy about it, I think.

 

[lwest]

My husband’s a gamer and some of his role-playing games require him to create characters. Different ballgame but somewhat in the same universe. He and I have had conversations along similar lines as you mentioned. I agree with the previous comment that this is something you should discuss with your priest but here’s my take: When you convert, your life is going to change. It’s supposed to change. You have a different mission now. Why do you want to play in a playground seeped in immorality and darkness? You’re supposed to be a light in the darkness. Since you have this talent and this interest, can you create a game or scenario where everyone has characters that aren’t immoral and dark? Where maybe they fight the forces of evil? Just a thought. You may have to make new friends…but that’s ok.

 

[LoveHeals]

That is an interesting take! It would be nice to use this talent/hobby to do something great, and you’ve given me an interesting idea. Thank you!

 

[lwest]

You’re very welcome! Good luck to you! My son would play one game years ago (forgot which game) and there were some characters on there throwing out Catechism questions. I wondered if they were seminarians or something. It was cool. May God bless your journey. I’m excited for you!