Help with very scrupulous vow

[DMITRIYL]

Hello, to start off I just want to state that I have had prolonged problems with scrupulosity. Several months ago I had an incident where if I did not complete a task then something terrible would happen (it was a very scrupulous/delusional task and result). After failing to complete the task I vowed to God that I would give up something I enjoy and I wanted to get this promise dispensed. The problem is that part of the vow was that I would not try to get it dispensed and if a priest agreed then that would mean that the priest was “of satan.” I also promised that “mitigating factors” including mental impairment or lack of full knowledge would be disregarded and made no difference regarding validity. I know that this sounds bizarre but scruples have that effect on me. When I made the promise I was in a state of panic and was not thinking clearly and I feel that my decision making was severely impaired at the moment. My question is whether I should have the promise annulled or try to fulfill it. I also want to know if the validity “clauses” from the vow count or if the provisions of Canon 1191 extend to those portions of the vow as well.

 

[Auntie_A]

Stop making these vows with yourself. Seek professional help. It is too easy to become delusional or setting oneself up to fail without the help of a professional counsellor who can help you with the scrupulosity. Please use great care right now and make sure you talk with a doctor or therapist immediately.

 

[PaulfromIowa]

This is not a religious problem. It is a mental health problem. You have no “vows” to worry about. Forget that nonsense immediately. Talk to an experienced counselor and a pastor about this irrational thinking.

 

[DMITRIYL]

Thank you, I have a regular confessor as well as professional help. I do know that it is illogical though there is always a little bit of doubt which cripples me.