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Julie_de_Sales
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I kindly ask for your prayers as I’m getting further and further away from my faith. My relationship with God has always been number 1 in my life, despite my struggles with sin and scrupulosity. Nothing that this world had to offer seemed more important to me than becoming a saint and I was really on fire for God. However, during the past 2 years, I got very cold about my faith, partially because of some personal struggles in my life/family and trying to figure out my vocation (entering the convent and leaving because it was definitely not my calling). It was a difficult journey and I am really disappointed at how things turned out in the end.
Now, I can barely bring myself to pray, go to Mass and receive the sacraments. I feel so ashamed for my sins that even the thought of going to confession scares me to no end. My faith is drifting away and it seems like I don’t care anymore, that I’m done.
I have a picture of the Sacred Heart on my desk and it tugs at my heart whenever I see it because I sense this invitation from Jesus to come to Him but I feel so hurt and angry (even at Him) that I want to keep running away from Him and other people as far as I can.
I feel like I’m just never going to be good enough for God or others and isolation seems to be the best choice in my situation.
Thank you for reading, please say a prayer for me
Now, I can barely bring myself to pray, go to Mass and receive the sacraments. I feel so ashamed for my sins that even the thought of going to confession scares me to no end. My faith is drifting away and it seems like I don’t care anymore, that I’m done.
I have a picture of the Sacred Heart on my desk and it tugs at my heart whenever I see it because I sense this invitation from Jesus to come to Him but I feel so hurt and angry (even at Him) that I want to keep running away from Him and other people as far as I can.
I feel like I’m just never going to be good enough for God or others and isolation seems to be the best choice in my situation.
Thank you for reading, please say a prayer for me

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