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badger11
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My former spouse separated from me and initiated a civil divorce last fall, which was finalized in April of this year. She left my because I was suffering from anxiety and depression for several months, and she was not willing to stand by me, and apparently believed she could never have children with me. I had converted to Catholicism during our relatively short (4 year marriage). My Catholic faith is very important to be, especially given the pain of the divorce.
Initially, I did not feel up to applying for a declaration of nullity, as I was not feeling prepared to dredge up the memories and feelings. I have been seeing a therapist and attending a divorce support group through a parish, and it has been extremely helpful.
Anyway, about 2 months ago I decided I was ready to proceed, and completed the paperwork, which was difficult, but bearable and somewhat cathartic. However, 4 days ago, I had my deposition. The individual who interviewed me was very kind, but the deposition lasted almost 3 hours, and the questions were very personal, and began from childhood through present, and included very emotional and difficult questions regarding my marriage and the end (during a period in which I was very anxious and was off of work).
I felt okay during the deposition and afterword, but over the past few days have really been feeling down, anxious, and emotional. I feel as though all of the emotions and memories have been stirred up. I am wondering if others have felt this way following their deposition? I should add that my grandmother passed away a month ago, and my dad has heart bypass surgery tomorrow, both of which are of course also causing me to be more emotional.
Additionally, I am hoping to kind of put this out of my mind once my witnesses have submitted their questionnaires, knowing that it could be some time before I decision is reached. In the mean time, I know that I must consider myself married to my former spouse, and do not intend to date or otherwise, which I am okay with. Have others found effective ways to cope with the waiting process. I will of course pray and attend Mass and Eucharistic Adoration weekly as I have, but I am still nervous about the outcome. I am only in my mid 30s, and certainly hope to remarry. I am told that my case is quite good, but there are no sure things.
I appreciate any insight. God bless you all.
Initially, I did not feel up to applying for a declaration of nullity, as I was not feeling prepared to dredge up the memories and feelings. I have been seeing a therapist and attending a divorce support group through a parish, and it has been extremely helpful.
Anyway, about 2 months ago I decided I was ready to proceed, and completed the paperwork, which was difficult, but bearable and somewhat cathartic. However, 4 days ago, I had my deposition. The individual who interviewed me was very kind, but the deposition lasted almost 3 hours, and the questions were very personal, and began from childhood through present, and included very emotional and difficult questions regarding my marriage and the end (during a period in which I was very anxious and was off of work).
I felt okay during the deposition and afterword, but over the past few days have really been feeling down, anxious, and emotional. I feel as though all of the emotions and memories have been stirred up. I am wondering if others have felt this way following their deposition? I should add that my grandmother passed away a month ago, and my dad has heart bypass surgery tomorrow, both of which are of course also causing me to be more emotional.
Additionally, I am hoping to kind of put this out of my mind once my witnesses have submitted their questionnaires, knowing that it could be some time before I decision is reached. In the mean time, I know that I must consider myself married to my former spouse, and do not intend to date or otherwise, which I am okay with. Have others found effective ways to cope with the waiting process. I will of course pray and attend Mass and Eucharistic Adoration weekly as I have, but I am still nervous about the outcome. I am only in my mid 30s, and certainly hope to remarry. I am told that my case is quite good, but there are no sure things.
I appreciate any insight. God bless you all.