How do you keep living with mortal sin?

[opop]

You only sin if you consent. When you begin willfully lusting, when you willfully desire and objectify the person in the magazine of billboard. There is no need to wear blinders; only to keep custody of your thoughts and senses. When the thought comes, and you realize it, you dismiss it. If you see something inappropriate, you avert your eyes. Doesn’t matter that the thought came to you, or that you saw it.

Twice a week, something is definitely wrong, and it’s not your sinfulness. More probably, a twisted notion of sin and a lack of trust in God’s goodness and grace.

Yes, I know that sin only happens with consent. However it seems to me that I consent. It is true that I often have a doubt about whether I consented completly or partially (which is what makes the difference between grave sin and mortal sin). However I think that a lot of times I consent completly. Images don’t always come to me by pure accident. Sometimes it is that I don’t take enough precautions when on the internet. Also, I often find myself arguing with myself about whether looking at a certain image would be sinful or not. Then I look at it, and then I regret it, because although I’m still not certain if it was an impure image in itself, it is a sin to do something without knowing if it is a sin or not. Or sometimes I convince myself that I want to look at it only in an artistic way (if it is a painting), and then it appears clearly to me that I actually want to lust (even if it’s just a painting it’s possible to lust).