Years ago I despised Reconciliation. I thought it ridiculous that I had to go to a person to get to God. But after many positive experiences through Christ Renews His Parish weekends I changed my view of the Sacrament and went maybe twice a year. Hey, Reconciliation is for those who really need to get unburdened, right.
Well, this past Lent I attended a lecture by Jack Shea, author of Gospel Light. He emphasized the need we all have for continual conversion, or metanoia. He defined metanoia as a changing of the mind - changing how one looks at the world. I truly wanted to “change my mind.”
I have also been influence by the Buddhist author Thich Nhat Hanh. I am greatly attracted to the Buddhist teachings on “practice,” which to me means consciously doing things, some simple and others more formal, to achieve ones spiritual goals.
So I wanted to truly change my mind by changing my practices. One change was to attend weekly Reconciliation. The first one was the hardest. It also made me realize why I once despised this Sacrament - I did have to confess something that had burdened me for many, many years. Since I wanted to “change my mind” I new I had to make a truly honest confession. For some reason the priest did not throw me out or even look at me in disgust. I was over the hard part. I continue to make weekly confessions. I have found a church when traveling, I have left family parties for a while to make Reconciliation.
I can tell you this for a fact - I have received sanctifying grace, and many once insurmountable temptations are deflected by this grace from God. I am not a different person, I have only allowed God’s grace to protect me.
There are few in line for Reconciliation, but there is also very limited available time offered by parishes. I have to attend a neighboring parish because my parish has very limited availablity.
Peace,
Nod