In some ways I’m better than I was in my thirtees. I’m more allergic to “some” sins than others. I was less aware of how evil was working in me then . I think I had sins more associated with desiring status and recognition. Now my sins centre more round misanthropy than anything else. Withdrawal from society is dangerous. potentially it can lead to growth. In my case there has been some growth but also obsessions about what happened in the past. Rumination is sinful and I need to lose it.
On a happier note, I have improved my fingerstyle guitar skill to the point of awe. Maybe I’m amazed how well I play Maybe I’m Amazed. Over the last 2 years I have become much more Bible literate and also Catholic literate, reading some apologetics as well. As one poster yesterday said poignantly “I have some head knowledge. Now I need the heart knowledge.”
I’ve made a lot of progress leaving behind some things…but they have still left their mark. I do better in some areas than others…but ultimately if I had to give myself a score, given all my past mistakes, present mistakes, and things I know about myself, MAYBE at MOST a 5/10.
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