Reference Detales post of July 03:
âI have explicated that to some and the result has been at least inflamatory, so I donât go there but rarely and with few.â
Actually, Iâve âBDâ too with similar experience. The faith, trust and belief parts are ALL 100% genuine too, BUT ⌠thereâs the other story, the other side to the story which I prefer keeping to myself. I too tried âexplainingâ myself. Result? They seriously thought of âcommittingâ me! Senility (pushing 60, I am!) and megalomania and a lot of other bombastic terms! So, thatâs me in the corner, putting in my thumb and pulling out a plum and everybody saying what a good boy I am!
I strongly believe in nature as in âhuman natureâ or âthe nature of the beastâ. Some people are tigers, some people are lambs (oversimplification really but it will suffice). If youâre a tiger youâve got to roar and stalk your prey, thatâs your nature. If youâre a lamb, then keep with the flock, thereâs safety in numbers⌠and donât roar, maintain the silence of the lambs!
Fortunately or unfortunately I have this âgotta know, gotta knowâ thing in my nature. So I try to find things out⌠thatâs my nature! In that exploration I come across many, many things which werenât (should be âarenâtâ actually) told/taught/conveyed to us as a community. And these are really very important issues! I mean, how many of those church regulars have even heard of âhypostasisâ or âconsubstantiationâ or âlapsarianismâ? Thatâs just âheard aboutâ forget âknow aboutâ!
Why? Why isnât all this part of Christian education?
Why do we need to find this out from âothersâ? Why do we need to get our education from (a) unreliable sources; (b) unauthorised sources?
Letâs take my exampleâŚ
Iâm fairly OK in the âeducation and knowledgeâ department (though I do say so meself). I can hold my own in pretty much any argument or discussion. However, I donât carry the argument to any great distance, preferring to drop it as early as possible. That old saying about arguing and two fools.
Now I get talking with a friend, said friend it turns out is XYZ (not RC and maybe not Christian even; sometimes, even worse, nominal RC or Christian). Iâm not aware of that. The discussion begins easily and comfortably enough, and goes deeper and deeper (or higher and higher). Then I get hit with, letâs say, something like âhypostasisâ of which Iâm totally ignorant.
âHypo - what?â I splutter. My friend grins like the Cheshire Cat. Naturally, Iâm killed, slaughtered, quartered, everything.
Now he lays into me and lays it on me but good. At that point of time Iâm really hurting. Hurting more at my ignorance, hurting about not âknowingâ my churchâs stand on such an important, critical matter. And in that weakened state I begin to âlistenâ to my friend who is now able to convince me pretty thoroughly about other âdefectsâ in RC/Christianity. I am not in a position to refute any of his claims/charges/allegations.
And then, you know what? I begin to really go for my friendâs argument!!! You can say that I begin to seriously âdoubtâ my catechism. And this coming from a Carmelite + Jesuit (2xwhammy) product, whose actual vocation was the priesthood! I really mean that, it was a taken-for-granted issue by everyone. Quite paradoxically, it was the Jesuits who steered me away from that vocation.
I know that this must happen to a majority of RC and I am sure a number do get disenchanted (that may be the wrong term) with their catechism and leave the RC church.
I was always skating on very thin ice and then sumthinâ happened. That sumthinâ in some ways is even worse than falling away! Anyway, that sumthinâ led me deep and deeper into matters of âfaithâ and I got carried away⌠to the other extreme (something like what youâve hinted about, about yourself). Then another sumthinâ happened, quite unexpected, and basically I got rapped on the knucklesâŚ
So though I do have my own thoughts about these matters Iâve decided to let the ultimate judge be âbeliefâ. Please note how the central part of âBELIEVEâ is LIE! Thatâs what I tried saying, that the word âbeliefâ implies doubt, not âcertaintyâ or âconvictionâ as most think. I know thatâs just a play on words and I, for one, donât put much stock in words, oral or written, but what else do we have? I have (some years ago, not now!) shocked people by saying that I donât âbelieveâ in â! I meant to say that I was âtotally convincedâ as against the doubt implied in âbeliefâ, but who do you think had the time (or inclination) to âunderstandâ that?
Best regards,
Eric
July 06, 2009.