This is the sort of reason that I started studying the Bible on my own, at my own pace, and with the materials of my choosing.
the statement attributed to Jesus about taking up your cross and following Hiim has bothered me for a long time.
There’s may be three issues involved.
- maybe Jesus said it, like it says
- maybe Jesus said it at a different time, and it was inserted there
- did Jesus say it?
these are hard-edged questions from the historical-critical point of view.
There’s other moments in the gospels that raise questions, too, like, how does anybody know what Jesus was praying in the garden of Gethsamane, if the three apostles were sleeping a short distance away?
Or,likewise, how does anybody know how the devil tempted Jesus in the desert? and what was said?
Some people go right over the edge worrying about questions like these.
Some people assert that the Beatitudes in Matthew were condensed from several different sets of preaching by Jesus – nobody would remember all these statements if they were rattled off so quickly – they say.
Why did Jesus heal the blind man with spittle or mud (was it?) ? That seems to fall into the category of superstitious things that crop up in ancient Judaism. What does it signify? (recreation, recalling Adam being formed from dirt?)
At least Judaism tallies all the theories and hunches about scripture interpretation into sets of volumes called the Talmud. There’s a Jerusalem Talmud and a Babylonian Talmud. Then, there’s other, later interpretations referred to as the Midrash.
It seems it would be nice if early Christians had recorded their ideas in a similar way.
Maybe they did, and it’s in the Vatican archives someplace.