Benignus:
As you can deduce from the title of this post, I don’t know how to pray anymore. I feel like my prayers are just my ramblings to God, and I am the one who does all the talking. Then, when I try to listen for His voice, I hear things in my head, but I think that it is just my imagination. When I say “hear things”, I don’t mean voices or anything. I’m not schizophrenic, I can assure you. It’s just that sometimes I think I put words in God’s mouth, so that God will tell me what I want to hear. I am really confused. I definitely see prayer as a vital necessity to Christian life, and I want to give it a prominent place in my life. However, I really don’t know how to pray. I pray the Rosary, and I have enjoyed this. Is it ok to use prayers written by saints, as long as the intentions of our heart are right, and it’s not just a mechanical repetition of words?
Dearest Friend
There is NO wrong way to pray…it is the raising up of your heart mind and spirit to God our Father’s heart mind and spirit, to His son and to the Holy Spirit. It is your thoughts, your heart, your love of Him communicated in a conversation that we call ‘prayer’. In this conversation you can say anything you want to God with reverance and love. Try reading a posting I have made in Catholic Prayers…
Catholic Prayers. It is supposed to be used when praying before the Blessed Sacrament (Quarter of an Hour before the Blessed Sacrament) as a prompt to stimulate your thoughts in prayer, but you can use it anytime and it greatly helps me, see what you think.
Also if you are experiencing this at present as long as any prayer is said in love, reverance and good intention you can offer any of the ‘set’ Catholic prayers, you can also offer your daily work as prayer, such as mowing the lawn or the employment you do, in offerance for whatever intention you have, sometimes you can sit silent in the presence of or with the Lord, this may seem lazy, but it isn’t, it is an act of love and you can offer that time in His presence, whether you are in Church or at home for a special intention. You can even say to the Lord, take a walk in the country with me or through my town and offer this as prayer to Him. Even your contemplation on the Lord’s life is prayer and you can offer this also. As for what you call your ‘ramblings’ God our Father is very pleased to hear them, He wants to hear every detail of every bit of your life so that you invite His hand into all of your life to mould it for your good and sanctification and the good of those you ask Him to help, these words you say to Him are said with LOVE and this is what matters, not the presumed idea that you have to choose the right words, YOUR words ARE the RIGHT words dear friend.
What is most important to remember, dear friend, is that Jesus and God know your heart and know what you intend even before you offer it to Him, so never worry, just be content to be with Him and offer yourself as you are, He loves you and you are not meant to struggle, He is there to walk with you and you with Him.
As for the voice you feel inside your mind, this may well be God’s prompting to you, or your conscience, either way, if it moves you to the good and to God then that is all well and good, the main thing to remember is to not require the supernatural in this way because you love Him without any sign to show you Him that is hidden from you. There is nothing wrong with you and I don’t think for one minute you have a mental illness, you dear friend are being drawn closer to God your Father and you have to trust Him in this and let Him lead you. We always think we HAVE to be doing something, some deep prayer or some large act, but sometimes dear friend we just need to be in His presence and love much.
God Bless you and much love and peace to you
Teresa xxx