part two
I was watching one of America’s most well-known Catholics the other night (jan 11), Stephen Colbert. He had a delightful young actor on Andrew Garfield. Garfield said - so poignantly - that what he was afraid of most was certainty. His explanation was so wise to me.
One more thing. I have claimed pretty much to believe in all faiths and an agnostic and an atheist. I am sure you could have fun telling me how illogical that is. Go for it if you want. But, for now, let me give a short explanation. I believe all religions are founded when some individual is struck with something deep within them. I believe this almost always comes from the Core of our being, where, as St. Bonaventure would say, we contuit God, that is, the moment we intuit our deepest self, we intuit the Self or God. This is very much in line with a lot of eastern spirituality as well, e.g., the Ground of Being. I further believe that religions are then used for good and for bad. What helps here are a lot of doctrines that make for a good control story. Salvation, sin, hell, forgiveness by priests, and a lot more are great for that. EVEN: Jesus was God. Read the ex nun and still theologian Karen Armstrong’s book, The History of God. Read the Anglican theologian, Tom Harpur’s Pagan Christ. It is not a bad thing to doubt one’s religion. God cannot be hurt by doubt. The great Thomas Merton was a big doubter.
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I doubted, too. I trusted that God and this universe was not going to send me to hell for all eternity because I chose to think through my doubts. I did. And I came out with love as all that matters. I find truth in all religions, looking at their core and practical beliefs. I find agnostic essential: it is the mind’s humble response to what we do not know: I do not know. Do you or anyone you know understand how and why there is existence in the first place? If we do not understand why anything exists, how are we able to be so certain in our words that do not even grasp the nouns that are the subject and the objects in our sentences? We do not know to the depths. To the depths we do not know. We have metaphor, symbol, archetypes, etc. Our minds do not contain the uncontainable. So, even if the pope is infallible, he is unable to make a statement of certainty because all words are imperfect symbol. So, there is no absolute truth on this plane. So, just forget orthodoxy and figure out how to love it all. I am working on it.